This is me at my heaviest weight two years ago (with current pictures of today). Full of inflammation and in constant pain. Unable to stand and walk for any length of time. Looking like an entirely different person. Depressed. Existing in a dark oil pit of isolation of my own making. Filled with self loathing. On the precipice of ending my life.
I cry as I type this.
I’m working on the issues I have with body dysmorphia. I’m 150 lbs down. I gained weight with my 7th surgery and it set me back…I’m finding myself having difficulty mentally activating myself to get back into the gym and do what I need to do to get the extra weight off. It’s amazing what you can talk yourself into and out of.
The impossible seems impossible until it’s done. I have to do the impossible.
I just wanted to encourage somebody today to keep moving. Keep trying. Don’t give up. These pictures are my motivation this day. I don’t want to ever feel like I did in these pictures again! I can’t afford to.
Peace, love, and light.
@Blakkmomba
