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It wasn't until actually I started creating content on TikTok everything like shot it up to 250, 000 followers overnight.
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When we don't feel worthy, we sabotage all of the greatest things that we could possibly have in our lives.
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So many people think confidence and self worth are actually the same.
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Believe it or not, we get it mixed up, I used to work for Corporate and I did not know.
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That leaving was going to be one of the scariest decisions I've ever made.
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You can, you can keep on going all you want, but eventually, you know, you'll, you'll experience an identity crisis When we follow the plan of the universe, everything that the ego wants will eventually get taken care of.
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All right.
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Welcome to the new age human podcast.
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I'm your host, Jonathan Astacio.
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And today we are talking with Mackenzie McBride, who is a public speaker, a self worth coach, and the CEO of Sage Cinematics.
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Now, the theme of today's episode is around the challenges of self sabotage and self worth.
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Is your self worth sabotaging your success?
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I want you to think about that in the back of your head as you listen to Mackenzie's story.
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And I'll just leave it there.
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Mackenzie McBride.
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Thank you for coming to the show.
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How's it going, man?
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Amazing, brother.
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I mean, it's great to be here.
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Thank you so much for having me.
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you got some really cool stuff going on with between your business with Sage Cinematics, your, your coaching business, and then, um, public speaking.
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Let's get into uh, Your story.
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I want to get right into it What um, where did everything start for you?
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on your journey to becoming a Self worth coach more importantly self mastery like where did that journey start?
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Dude, it, it goes, it goes way, way back.
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So, I would, I would say to make it very short.
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I believe self mastery is, you know, aligning mind, body and soul.
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And when mind, body and souls in alignment, that is when we are at our finest.
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And, uh, My entire life, I could have thought that all of those things were in alignment, but what was actually in alignment was, I like to say, mind, body, and soul is also confidence, willpower, and self worth.
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Hmm.
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So I've always had the confidence and I've always had the willpower, but I didn't necessarily know that the self worth aspect was lacking.
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It wasn't until actually I started creating content on TikTok and quickly it went viral.
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Everything like shot it up to 250, 000 followers overnight.
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I'm getting all of these messages from people who are And the content was about spirituality, mental health, and all of this stuff.
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So just think about that, how that was going, but so I'm getting all of these messages from people I'm getting flown out to LA to create with all of these big creators and meet some fans and this, this whole thing.
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And something for me just wasn't feeling right.
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And at the time I thought.
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Well, maybe this doesn't feel right because this isn't necessarily what I'm supposed to be doing.
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But in actuality, it was one of the pillars that I had missing.
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I wasn't in alignment.
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I didn't have the self worth.
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I didn't feel worthy of receiving all of the approval that accolades the, I wasn't used to people showing me love.
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I've always been the kid that is striving to receive the love, but that's.
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Because in the back of my mind, I never felt worthy of having it, but I wanted to have it.
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And so I realized that people don't realize how much their lack of self worth is costing them.
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When we don't feel worthy, we sabotage all of the greatest things that we could possibly have in our lives.
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And I was this close.
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I quit creating content for like five, six years.
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It just blows my mind to think about how many things in my life I could have self sabotaged as well that I wasn't aware of.
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I've sabotaged career growth, relationships, you name it, whatever it was, because I simply didn't believe that I was worthy of, uh, anything great.
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That's so once I healed that, I made sure that I really wanted to make sure that nobody on this planet ever moment here where they don't feel worthy.
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It's one of the most powerful things that we never think about.
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It's interesting how you said you had confidence, but not self worth.
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How does that work?
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Cause for me, I feel they're very connected and it's hard to fathom one without the other.
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How, how does that work?
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So many people think confidence and self worth are actually the same.
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Believe it or not, we get it mixed up, which is exactly why I, I, I, which is exactly why I never had a hard time creating external success in my life, but I did have a hard time creating internal success.
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So confidence is the way that you see yourself and.
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In the way that you know that no matter what happens, I can overcome no matter what comes in my way.
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I'm confident in my ability to show up.
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I'm confident in my ability to get this done.
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I am confident in my ability to see things through push forward.
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No matter what happens.
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I know that I'm that type of person.
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I can get that done no matter what.
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It is detaching.
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Your.
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It is detaching your worth from outcomes.
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When you know that you'll overcome any outcome, that's confidence.
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It's like, no, I am awesome regardless of whatever outcome comes because I can get through it.
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So that's confidence.
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It's the ability to overcome anything, no matter what it is.
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And it's also seeing yourself in a way where you're like, I can truly get through anything.
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Self worth is do I feel like I'm worthy of it?
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It's a completely different thing to give you an example.
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I may be confident that I am an amazing content creator.
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I may be confident that I like I am really good at doing this thing.
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And even if I fail in this moment.
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I will overcome that and keep going to get better.
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But that doesn't mean that I necessarily feel worthy of the thing that I'm looking to achieve.
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It
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doesn't necessarily mean that I feel worthy of getting that.
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Especially when you come from a place where you previously lacked that thing.
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In my case, the thing that I lacked was, uh, I grew up in an environment where my parents didn't show as much, uh, attention or approval or, or support in my life.
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And so I, I always worked hard.
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I was confident in whatever I did, but actually getting the, Oh, my God, you're doing so good.
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That's so great.
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That was strange to me.
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I had the confidence to do whatever it was on the outside, but it, I never had the, I didn't have the self worth.
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I didn't think I was worthy of receiving it all.
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Interesting.
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I'm reflecting on myself and I'm like, uh, had a lot of, you can do it, you can do it.
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But then the opposite, which was, I didn't do it because I didn't want to I guess I saw myself bigger than the outcome, and so I didn't want to prove that wrong, so I didn't do it.
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I'm like, oh yeah, I could do that, but I'm not gonna.
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And so I didn't want to.
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That's, that's self worth, man.
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Yeah.
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That's it.
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So there was high self worth.
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But very little confidence.
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So I was coming from the exact opposite space, which is interesting to hear you see experience something completely opposite and makes total sense when, when, so that's, that's nuts.
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You started doing mental health or you, you started doing some interesting content on tech talk that blew up and then you're freaking getting flown out.
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To some event and I'm guessing that's the like a creator event because you like what was that all about?
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I, they just wanted to highlight some of the top creators that were on the platform at the time.
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Oh,
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so TikTok flew you
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out.
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Yes, correct.
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So it was, uh, it was a really big TikTok event, so it was just me and a bunch of other big creators at the time.
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And we, it was also like a, a, a red carpet experience.
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We got to meet, uh, people like Terry Cruz, Nick Cannon, uh, so many others, people I can't even remember right now, but we also got to, you know, create content with them at the time.
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Cause it was at a time where there wasn't like a lot of celebrities doing this at the, at the time.
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This was like, it was like new to the game when TikTok first like hit.
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So yeah, it was, it was, it was different.
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Okay so that happened and then you had a five year pause that's like What were you doing in that five years?
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You just stopped creating content and just did other stuff
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entirely I'm, i'm so happy like dude, we're about to get deep.
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Okay Uh, they say that your frequency is what you frequently see And the, the vibration that I was like vibrating at when it came to, uh, being in alignment was completely off.
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Like I was not in alignment with, uh, what I truly wanted to do.
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And so I didn't know that I didn't feel worthy and that's why I quit.
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I didn't realize that I didn't feel worthy until about two years ago.
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Hmm.
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During that five year gap.
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I, I was always into cinematography and filmmaking.
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It was what I was, I was using my skills as a cinematographer to go viral.
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At the time, nobody else on Tik TOK was using professional camera gear.
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Everybody was using their phone.
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So I was always into, uh, the art of storytelling, spirituality, filmmaking, all of that.
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I left being a content creator.
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I've stopped.
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Entirely put that on pause.
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And for five years, I went on to build a very successful media production company.
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And during this time, I had no idea why the media production company for five years was doing so well.
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It didn't make sense to me.
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I was like, well, why does this?
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How come this is, this is so beautiful.
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But the content creator thing wasn't hitting for me.
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It was so it wasn't actually until one day I woke up and was like, Oh, there it is.
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I don't know what it was.
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I, I don't know if I read something, man.
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I don't know if I was listening to something or if it was like deep within, within a meditation or I just one day just got hit with a wave of, of, of truth.
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And it was dude.
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The moment you receive any greatness in your life, you self sabotage it and you didn't feel worthy of the love.
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And that's why you self sabotaged it.
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You see, for anybody listening, if you, especially when it comes to entrepreneurship, spirituality, or when it comes to just living life on purpose.
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If mind, body, and soul, in other words, confidence, willpower, and self worth is not in alignment, you can only get, but so far in the, in the content creation world, I had the confidence in the willpower, but I didn't think that I was worthy.
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I had the confidence like, dude, I can crush this.
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Um, this is awesome.
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The willpower.
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Will I actually take the actionable steps to make it possible?
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Yes.
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Do I believe that I'm worthy of it?
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Whoa.
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I didn't, but the media production company did so well because I never had a wound around money.
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So I have the confidence.
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That dude.
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Okay.
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I'm a great cinematographer.
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I've done this before.
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I'm pretty sure that whatever situation I can show up, how I need to also have the willpower.
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I, I, I willing to walk the walk.
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I'm willing to put in the actionable steps.
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I'll do that.
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And do I believe that I'm worthy of money?
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She's like, yes, I do.
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So I never had a problem with that.
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And, and when I realized that it was, it was, Whoa, We do not receive in life that which we desire.
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We only receive that which, which we feel we are equal to the frequency of, and, and the universe always says yes.
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So if you say no, and I said no to my own worthiness, that's where the self sabotage happens.
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I like how you're like,
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huh?
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No, I'm sorry.
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Yes.
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Yes.
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Go ahead.
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I don't know.
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I was going to, I'm just responding to what you said.
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Um, You were saying like, I have no problem accepting the money.
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And I, I don't hear that as often.
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We, I joke around.
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Yeah, yeah, I'll take it.
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But at the end of the day, like that has been my thing where accepting the money, it was like, no, no, no.
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What did I do to deserve?
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Because I'm not used to this amount.
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And then at the same time, you put it pretty well.
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Yes.
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Universe always says yes.
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And, if you don't deserve it, you don't deserve it.
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If you do deserve it, you do.
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Right?
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I like it.
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So, absolutely.
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And so you just was like, I'm going to do tech talk.
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And then you got all this attention.
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And then you're like, too much.
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I don't deserve this.
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Let me just go to what I'm used to.
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And you went straight into cinematography and that blew up.
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But now you're self reflecting.
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Like, wow, I had no problem with this now.
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What happened with the other thing?
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Like, were you questioning it because you wanted to go back into content creation?
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Like, was cinematography getting a little boring and you wanted to like, go to the next level?
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Like, why were you questioning yourself?
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Cause you already have something that's good.
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I'm so happy that you asked.
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So I, I, I wanna, I wanna mention this, this point.
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I didn't realize that I wasn't, I, I, the moment I realized why I ran away from the, The love attention and approval and, and the, Oh, you're like, this guy is amazing.
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I think, I think I remember it was one day I was at probably at like a brand or business shoe or shooting a wedding or something.
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And I was like, Oh my God.
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I was so afraid of this.
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I went from being in front of the camera to being behind the camera.
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Like I ran away from the spotlight so hard.
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I did a complete three 60 and the thing that was like killing me inside.
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I'd when it came to, uh, the, the media production company was, I felt like source was missing.
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I felt like creation.
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God was completely missing.
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It was gone.
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And it was the thing that was that lit me up inside was completely gone.
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It just felt wrong.
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It felt like all the, all the gifts that I have, all the talents that I have, the, the natural.
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Love and to be able to speak with somebody and walk inside of a room and light up the energy and influence the energy in the room was gone.
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Now I'm the guy who walks inside of a place.
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And instead of telling my story and uplifting people's lives and their spirit with love and stories.
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I'm now recording stories for other people.
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I, I didn't believe I was worthy so much that I'm now walking around with a camera, putting everybody else in the spotlight and I'm behind.
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It blew my mind.
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Fireworks.
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Yes.
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I said fireworks because like the, the imagery just did a whole bunch of fireworks.
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He was saying that.
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Oh my gosh.
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It's good time.
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It truly blew my mind, man.