Daydreamin' with J.R. Price

WEBVTT 1 00:00:01.080 --> 00:00:05.919 Hey, what's up world? Welcome to season three of snack size, the 2 00:00:06.080 --> 00:00:11.070 podcast that will drag you into your most fabulous life. It's a brand new 3 00:00:11.150 --> 00:00:16.070 year and it's a great time to live the like of your dreams. You've 4 00:00:16.109 --> 00:00:19.750 got to do you because no one else can and, no matter what, 5 00:00:20.149 --> 00:00:23.940 you're happy and fulfilled life looks like. I want to help you get there. 6 00:00:23.980 --> 00:00:32.179 Are Time together starts now. Hey, snacks, welcome back to snacks 7 00:00:32.219 --> 00:00:37.250 eyes, the podcast that will drag you into your most fabulous life. Speaking 8 00:00:37.289 --> 00:00:41.729 of fabulous, our guest today is the absolute definition of the word. He 9 00:00:41.890 --> 00:00:47.090 is a singer, actor, dancer and one of the biggest personalities I've ever 10 00:00:47.210 --> 00:00:52.399 had on this show. His new album daydream is a fun top forty ear 11 00:00:52.520 --> 00:00:58.600 candy type album, while simultaneously exploring many of his personal life challenges. He 12 00:00:58.799 --> 00:01:03.280 says that all of the songs are windows into very personal experiences, but I 13 00:01:03.430 --> 00:01:07.670 don't tell them in the sad way. This album expresses how, even at 14 00:01:07.750 --> 00:01:11.750 my worst point, I managed to hold on to the hope that this day 15 00:01:11.750 --> 00:01:18.269 would come when I can finally chase my dreams on my own terms. He 16 00:01:18.390 --> 00:01:23.140 experienced a rough childhood. His father was work a holic who was never home 17 00:01:23.340 --> 00:01:27.299 and, when he was, was emotionally on a available. His mother was 18 00:01:27.459 --> 00:01:34.849 mentally, physically and emotionally abusive. Last year he was diagnosed with hyper diabetes. 19 00:01:34.650 --> 00:01:38.409 To exercise and dieting, he has lost the weight and, as he 20 00:01:38.609 --> 00:01:42.969 declares, beat the beat. He's in fact, he's the healthiest he's ever 21 00:01:44.129 --> 00:01:49.040 been here to discuss his life, his struggles, his triumphs and, most 22 00:01:49.120 --> 00:01:55.000 importantly, his music. Welcome to snack size, Joshua Randall price. Let's 23 00:01:55.000 --> 00:02:00.430 give him a call. Hi, J are welcome to snack size. Hello. 24 00:02:00.750 --> 00:02:02.750 Thank you, Lolla. Thank you for having me. I'm ready to 25 00:02:02.790 --> 00:02:07.389 be dragged into my most fabulous life. I am so excited to have you 26 00:02:07.509 --> 00:02:13.590 because you do so much, Oh my goodness, like you're an actor, 27 00:02:13.629 --> 00:02:16.379 a singer, choreographer. I don't want to speak for you, so why 28 00:02:16.419 --> 00:02:20.219 don't you tell a listeners a little bit about you and all the things that 29 00:02:20.300 --> 00:02:22.900 you do? Gosh, you're right, I do so much. When you 30 00:02:22.979 --> 00:02:24.580 listed out like that, it does sound like a lot, doesn't it? 31 00:02:25.139 --> 00:02:30.490 Yeah, I recently moved to Nashville, Tennessee, from New York City, 32 00:02:30.969 --> 00:02:34.810 but I have a degree in musical theater, with emphasis on musical theater, 33 00:02:35.009 --> 00:02:38.449 in the theater and vocal performance. So I'm all over the board. Basically, 34 00:02:38.449 --> 00:02:43.610 anything that you get paid and you live out of a box to do, 35 00:02:43.889 --> 00:02:49.479 I'm qualified to do that. Yeah, I'm qualified to be super poor 36 00:02:49.680 --> 00:02:53.479 for the rest of my life and I love it. I love everything about 37 00:02:53.479 --> 00:02:58.830 it. So I do write my own songs. I have been working on 38 00:02:58.909 --> 00:03:02.789 an album for two years with a lot of different producers. The album has 39 00:03:02.870 --> 00:03:07.990 officially two producers on it, Freddie Freeman and fewer, O wise, and 40 00:03:08.710 --> 00:03:13.340 we created something really beautiful together and I can't wait for people to hear it. 41 00:03:13.620 --> 00:03:15.419 Though. How are you liking Nashville so far compared to New York? 42 00:03:15.659 --> 00:03:21.539 Well, I'm still in pandemic crisis modes, so I haven't really left my 43 00:03:21.620 --> 00:03:24.300 house other than I had found up for a gym membership because health is important, 44 00:03:24.659 --> 00:03:29.210 so I go and I wear my mask and stay away from everyone as 45 00:03:29.250 --> 00:03:31.090 much as I possibly can, but other than going to the gym, I 46 00:03:31.210 --> 00:03:34.889 really haven't done anything yet. I just moved here on the first of the 47 00:03:34.930 --> 00:03:38.969 year, so everything still new. I'm waiting to get acclimated. So tell 48 00:03:39.050 --> 00:03:44.360 us about your new album, day dream. Yeah, daydream for me is 49 00:03:44.800 --> 00:03:47.599 kind of like a diary. Every song that I've written on the album is 50 00:03:47.639 --> 00:03:53.800 about a personal experience I have been through throughout my entire life. There are 51 00:03:53.840 --> 00:03:55.870 songs on it about my family and the way they treated me. There are 52 00:03:55.909 --> 00:03:59.949 songs about, like the breakups I've been through. There are songs about my 53 00:03:59.990 --> 00:04:03.270 body image issues, there are songs about my sexuality, there are songs about 54 00:04:03.389 --> 00:04:09.750 loving myself. Their songs about my mental health. Basically, every single song 55 00:04:10.539 --> 00:04:13.979 overcome some sort of obstacle that I have went through in my life and it 56 00:04:14.060 --> 00:04:15.740 puts a positive spin on it, because at the end of the day, 57 00:04:15.740 --> 00:04:20.259 I believe that what a day dream is is a moment where you're having hope 58 00:04:20.379 --> 00:04:25.649 for a better future. So I like to put a positive spin on every 59 00:04:25.689 --> 00:04:28.689 heartbreak I've been through, and that's what the album does. It puts a 60 00:04:28.769 --> 00:04:34.129 positive spin on everything. That sounds like very comprehensive of a person that's lived 61 00:04:34.170 --> 00:04:39.000 a lot of life. Oh you have like a favorite track? Oh, 62 00:04:39.079 --> 00:04:42.879 girl, I have lived a life. Yeah, I've lived a lot of 63 00:04:42.959 --> 00:04:46.639 life. My favorite track, though, Gosh, it's so hard because every 64 00:04:46.680 --> 00:04:50.800 single song is like I actually wrote it, like it's from me, so 65 00:04:50.839 --> 00:04:55.350 I'm really biased. I mean daydream the title track is such a BOP. 66 00:04:55.790 --> 00:04:59.509 Body positive is a BOP. But like, I have like country influence songs, 67 00:04:59.670 --> 00:05:01.910 I have vintage songs. Of course. My Song with Tom Goss is 68 00:05:01.990 --> 00:05:06.300 like a dream come true, like can't even believe that happened. I love 69 00:05:06.379 --> 00:05:10.139 every song. I'm sorry, Lal, I can't answer that. They're all 70 00:05:10.459 --> 00:05:13.860 beautiful. Listen to the whole thing. I get it. I totally get 71 00:05:13.899 --> 00:05:15.939 it. So you have your duet with Tom Goss. Is that the only 72 00:05:15.980 --> 00:05:18.860 duet on the album? No, I actually had another duet on the album 73 00:05:18.899 --> 00:05:23.889 with my producer, who is now Fiora but at the time was feathers wise. 74 00:05:24.410 --> 00:05:27.490 So it's called it's not me, it's you, and it's about like 75 00:05:27.649 --> 00:05:30.329 you know how people in a breakup, they're always like, oh, you 76 00:05:30.449 --> 00:05:32.490 know, it's not you, it's me, like I'm going through stuff. 77 00:05:32.569 --> 00:05:35.680 No, like this is like you break up and it's like you're right, 78 00:05:35.839 --> 00:05:41.040 it is you, you're the problem. It's very much alike the breakup song. 79 00:05:41.680 --> 00:05:44.879 Yes, yeah, those about working with both of those people. Gosh, 80 00:05:44.920 --> 00:05:47.879 I love duets. I just love working with other people and collaborating and 81 00:05:48.120 --> 00:05:53.709 creating something beautiful together. And the songs are so different because the song with 82 00:05:53.750 --> 00:05:58.189 feathers is a breakup song, so I got to be like fierce and amazing 83 00:05:58.310 --> 00:06:01.709 and like angry. And when I work with feathers it's just so it's so 84 00:06:01.910 --> 00:06:06.379 transcended from reality. Like we just talked to each other in melodic ferried us 85 00:06:06.620 --> 00:06:11.139 like normal people can't even understand. We'll just like look at each other and 86 00:06:11.220 --> 00:06:15.500 we'll just know the melody that we're both thinking. So like working with her 87 00:06:15.699 --> 00:06:18.129 is just brilliant and I went and trade it for anything in the world. 88 00:06:18.290 --> 00:06:23.769 But then also working with Tom Goss. He was like a hero of mine 89 00:06:23.769 --> 00:06:27.569 when I was little, and his video, I don't know if you've seen 90 00:06:27.610 --> 00:06:30.730 it, but he has a music video called bears and it has like all 91 00:06:30.769 --> 00:06:34.920 these like plus size men dancing around and like bathing suits and being sexy, 92 00:06:35.759 --> 00:06:41.439 and it really inspired me and without seeing that video I never would have even 93 00:06:41.680 --> 00:06:46.519 tried to be a pop star or pursue this music career, and let alone 94 00:06:46.560 --> 00:06:49.310 have my debut music video be body positive where I'm dancing in my underwear. 95 00:06:49.350 --> 00:06:54.550 Him being on my album is just kind of like it's like starstruck. It's 96 00:06:54.589 --> 00:06:59.589 like he's the Madonna to my Brittany or the GOUT got to my Ri I 97 00:07:00.189 --> 00:07:02.540 love a good full circle moment. Yeah, it seems like you've found a 98 00:07:02.860 --> 00:07:08.220 lot of power by identifying with the bear community. Talk to us about that. 99 00:07:08.420 --> 00:07:13.100 Yeah, so I think that what I love about the bear community is 100 00:07:13.220 --> 00:07:15.449 that it's a brotherhood. Right. It feels like we're all in this together. 101 00:07:16.009 --> 00:07:20.209 I do think that, you know, every subsidiary of the gay community 102 00:07:20.329 --> 00:07:26.290 is going to have you know, they're different categories of people who are assassy 103 00:07:26.529 --> 00:07:30.959 and saying bad things to you, but I think with the bears we all 104 00:07:30.040 --> 00:07:33.399 understand each other and we get each other on a deeper level because we know 105 00:07:33.480 --> 00:07:38.120 the struggles that we've been through. I think everybody's been through something very similar 106 00:07:38.240 --> 00:07:43.040 with our body image and I think that I can relate to those people and 107 00:07:43.120 --> 00:07:46.149 I have people who will look at me and tell me I'm beautiful and really 108 00:07:46.269 --> 00:07:48.990 mean it. I think it's hard, because I don't want to say that 109 00:07:49.069 --> 00:07:55.189 like, you know, tweinks or skinny gaze or anybody like doesn't get what 110 00:07:55.350 --> 00:07:59.819 it's like to be a bear. But I will say that the Brotherhood I 111 00:07:59.939 --> 00:08:03.420 have formed with some amazing bears, including my producer Freddie Freeman, has just 112 00:08:03.540 --> 00:08:09.699 been so monumentally life changing to me and has made me proud of my body. 113 00:08:09.500 --> 00:08:15.129 And while all gay people in the alphabet Mafia, the alphabet mob, 114 00:08:15.170 --> 00:08:20.329 Ya, the alphabet mom. That's great. Well, all members of the 115 00:08:20.370 --> 00:08:24.089 alphabet mafia are a family. I do feel like the bears are kind of 116 00:08:24.129 --> 00:08:28.639 like the older brother of the family, right. How did you feel before 117 00:08:28.879 --> 00:08:33.720 you found that side of yourself? Just so isolated. I was very detrimental, 118 00:08:33.759 --> 00:08:39.000 I think, growing up where I didn't have the bears and I didn't 119 00:08:39.000 --> 00:08:43.590 have examples of like I can own who I am. I went to very 120 00:08:43.629 --> 00:08:48.990 dark places. I was suicidal. I had body Dysmorphia, you know, 121 00:08:48.070 --> 00:08:52.429 I hated myself for my sexuality because I didn't fit of of my family. 122 00:08:52.230 --> 00:08:56.340 I, you know, was afraid to sing or dance, like I didn't 123 00:08:56.379 --> 00:09:01.139 have any confidence, I didn't have any friends and I think that when I 124 00:09:01.340 --> 00:09:05.580 finally found the bear community, I found my place in the world, which 125 00:09:05.580 --> 00:09:09.169 is why I fight for it so hard. In terms of body positivity, 126 00:09:09.330 --> 00:09:13.450 I know you have a song about it, but what does that mean for 127 00:09:13.570 --> 00:09:16.009 you today, as supposed to where you can oh my gosh. So the 128 00:09:16.090 --> 00:09:20.090 word body positivity changes for me daily, I think because when I wrote the 129 00:09:20.210 --> 00:09:26.039 song, I was three hundred and eighty nine pounds, and that was before 130 00:09:26.080 --> 00:09:28.960 I was diagnosed with hyper diabetes, and I know that you have talked about 131 00:09:28.960 --> 00:09:33.879 having diabetes. I listened to your podcast with Stacy McDonald, stacy mcgone, 132 00:09:35.440 --> 00:09:39.830 and you know, I was fortunate enough that, unlike stacy, when I 133 00:09:39.909 --> 00:09:43.230 went to the doctor they were very supportive. So I got a team of 134 00:09:43.309 --> 00:09:48.269 Indo chronologist who gave me like the right diet for me and they checked in 135 00:09:48.389 --> 00:09:52.110 with me every week and I had meetings with them. They set me up 136 00:09:52.149 --> 00:09:54.500 with free healthcare, they put me on all the right meds and I actually 137 00:09:54.500 --> 00:10:00.539 got to beat diabetes within six months. I've lost a hundred and fifty five 138 00:10:00.580 --> 00:10:05.340 pounds and still counting. Wow. Yeah, and congratulation. It's, you 139 00:10:05.460 --> 00:10:09.769 know, really hard. It's also hard to hear congratulations, ironically, because 140 00:10:09.809 --> 00:10:13.250 I feel like it's something that, like I shouldn't be congratulated for. It's 141 00:10:13.289 --> 00:10:15.809 something I should have been doing, I should have been taking care of myself. 142 00:10:16.570 --> 00:10:20.169 But it's hard, you know, especially when I'm an emotional eater. 143 00:10:20.730 --> 00:10:24.279 So every time I have a heartbreak, I like just go for the donuts, 144 00:10:24.679 --> 00:10:28.320 I go for the cheesecake and so just telling yourself that, like no, 145 00:10:28.519 --> 00:10:31.080 like this is only a fleeting moment, like you don't need food, 146 00:10:31.279 --> 00:10:35.669 like it's an everyday battle. But I will say that body positive. To 147 00:10:35.789 --> 00:10:41.070 me, today is about health because at the end of the day, like, 148 00:10:41.190 --> 00:10:43.830 if you're truly positive about your body, then you're treating it like the 149 00:10:43.909 --> 00:10:48.549 temple it is and you're not going to put something in your temple that's going 150 00:10:48.590 --> 00:10:52.299 to burn it down. So you want to stay healthy and stay motivated because 151 00:10:52.340 --> 00:10:56.620 at the end of the day, I'm a work of art and I'm going 152 00:10:56.659 --> 00:11:00.779 to treat my pint. I Michael Angelo. Okay, yeah, if you 153 00:11:01.179 --> 00:11:05.769 had to think of a reason why you ignored your health for so long, 154 00:11:05.929 --> 00:11:07.409 what would it be, and how have you change that in your life? 155 00:11:07.409 --> 00:11:11.049 I think a lot of it wasn't that I was ignoring it, I was 156 00:11:11.129 --> 00:11:16.809 unaware because even at my biggest like I could still do cartwheels and toe touches 157 00:11:16.970 --> 00:11:18.480 and you know, I'm a dancer, I'm a performer, and I was 158 00:11:18.559 --> 00:11:24.000 still performing, you know, three hour shows and getting nominated for rewards and 159 00:11:24.480 --> 00:11:28.000 doing my costume changes and you know, I never, I never looked at 160 00:11:28.120 --> 00:11:33.350 myself as handicapped by my size, which is why I wrote body positive from 161 00:11:33.429 --> 00:11:37.110 that viewpoint, because I was like my size doesn't matter, like I can 162 00:11:37.149 --> 00:11:41.669 do all of these things. So I was always capable of doing everything. 163 00:11:41.789 --> 00:11:43.549 So it wasn't that I was ignoring my health, that was that I was 164 00:11:43.629 --> 00:11:50.139 just latantly oblivious to what was going on, because I didn't have any repercussions, 165 00:11:50.659 --> 00:11:54.820 like I didn't know the I didn't have any signs, like I I 166 00:11:54.220 --> 00:11:56.980 wasn't aware. It wasn't that was annoying it. So I was like, 167 00:11:58.019 --> 00:12:01.179 you know, I thought I was completely healthy. I just thought I was 168 00:12:01.220 --> 00:12:05.450 a big girl. You know, I got it. Honestly, that's so 169 00:12:05.570 --> 00:12:09.330 similar to what I thought. And a lot of people looked at me and 170 00:12:09.330 --> 00:12:11.090 they were like, you didn't know any time, and I was like I 171 00:12:11.370 --> 00:12:16.080 didn't feel like I wasn't living the life I wanted to because of my size. 172 00:12:16.279 --> 00:12:18.080 You know. So it's only like, I mean when I look at 173 00:12:18.080 --> 00:12:22.120 your friends who are bigger and they're like they can't walk a block because they're 174 00:12:22.240 --> 00:12:26.159 breathing too heavy, and you know, I'm doing cartwheels, like I'm like 175 00:12:26.320 --> 00:12:30.230 clearly I'm fine, like you know, but no, no, you're not 176 00:12:30.509 --> 00:12:33.870 right. Aside from eating what's been the biggest change within you as a person? 177 00:12:33.909 --> 00:12:37.750 HMM, honestly, my outlook on life since I was diagnosed. I've 178 00:12:37.750 --> 00:12:41.669 been through, you know, even more terrible things then that disease, and 179 00:12:43.309 --> 00:12:46.019 every single time I'm like no, I lived through this, I can live 180 00:12:46.100 --> 00:12:52.220 through this too, and I look at the good moments and I really cherish 181 00:12:52.299 --> 00:12:54.500 them, like being on your podcast like this is a big moment for me 182 00:12:56.059 --> 00:13:00.690 and it makes me so happy and I let this happiness carry me through those 183 00:13:00.730 --> 00:13:03.289 dark times, because you know they're going to come. Everybody has setbacks, 184 00:13:03.370 --> 00:13:07.889 everybody has heartbreaks and I've had some really bad things happened to me. But 185 00:13:09.490 --> 00:13:13.120 you have to let the joy be greater, you have to let happiness be 186 00:13:13.440 --> 00:13:18.799 sadness. You just have to. That is so beautiful and I really like 187 00:13:20.000 --> 00:13:24.159 what you said about letting the happiness in because I believe that that is where 188 00:13:24.159 --> 00:13:28.389 you really start to allow your dreams come true, and you seem to have 189 00:13:28.509 --> 00:13:33.350 done that several times over in several different fields. So I guess which was 190 00:13:33.549 --> 00:13:37.110 your First Love? Like, was it acting? Was it singing? God, 191 00:13:37.470 --> 00:13:39.350 I mean I fell in love with everything all at once. I just 192 00:13:39.549 --> 00:13:45.740 love storytelling, you know, like I love making people feel something. I 193 00:13:46.059 --> 00:13:48.500 love connecting with other people because I don't think I have another way to do 194 00:13:48.779 --> 00:13:52.139 that. You know, I don't think people really appreciate me unless if I'm 195 00:13:52.179 --> 00:13:58.690 making them feel something. So any way that I can do that is definitely 196 00:13:58.090 --> 00:14:03.970 going to be something I look to do. If you had advice for your 197 00:14:03.090 --> 00:14:07.529 younger self now, what would some things be that you cash? I would 198 00:14:07.529 --> 00:14:11.159 just look at myself and I'd be like maybe it's going to be. Okay, 199 00:14:11.600 --> 00:14:15.360 it's in me. Okay, this isn't the end, this is the 200 00:14:15.480 --> 00:14:20.240 prolog like. This is not it? Like all this heartbreak, all the 201 00:14:20.559 --> 00:14:24.950 pain, the detrimental things that your mother does to you, the way your 202 00:14:26.029 --> 00:14:28.710 father treats you, the way your sister judges you, the way your other 203 00:14:28.789 --> 00:14:35.230 sister backstabs you, the way the bullies at school torment you daily, all 204 00:14:35.309 --> 00:14:41.019 of that is making you the strongest version of yourself. All of that is 205 00:14:41.100 --> 00:14:43.980 making you me. I actually, before we did this interview, I listened 206 00:14:45.059 --> 00:14:50.700 to your radio interview and you would mention that two relationships are kind of and 207 00:14:52.139 --> 00:15:03.049 Grat just to that's all I've mentioned. Talk about how you handle those breakups. 208 00:15:03.090 --> 00:15:09.000 Are breakups, we can say you know bad relationships we can say at 209 00:15:09.039 --> 00:15:13.039 all. Yeah, I'm not the luckiest when it comes to men, that's 210 00:15:13.080 --> 00:15:18.840 for sure. I was in a serious relationship at one point in time. 211 00:15:18.039 --> 00:15:24.870 We are talking about marriage, and I come home from work and he was 212 00:15:24.029 --> 00:15:28.549 gone, all of his things, and there was a note on my pillow, 213 00:15:28.830 --> 00:15:33.470 a post it. Yes, he sets in the city'd be, and 214 00:15:33.629 --> 00:15:37.860 it said I hope we could be friends. Love his name. Love was 215 00:15:37.940 --> 00:15:41.860 marked out and friends was misspelled. Oh yeah, like not even correct grammar, 216 00:15:41.940 --> 00:15:45.580 girl, like it was bad. One of the songs on my album 217 00:15:45.980 --> 00:15:48.620 is actually about him. It's called on like the wind. But, you 218 00:15:48.740 --> 00:15:50.769 know, I didn't know what to do. I was in love with this 219 00:15:50.889 --> 00:15:56.250 person and he had left me for, you know, someone who is older 220 00:15:56.289 --> 00:16:00.289 than me, who had four kids, and I was like devastated. I 221 00:16:00.330 --> 00:16:03.840 was nineteen, you know, like I was lost to the world and, 222 00:16:04.279 --> 00:16:07.759 you know, I was like I'm never going to love again. And that 223 00:16:07.960 --> 00:16:11.480 like wasn't even my only heartbreak. Like, you know, I've been in 224 00:16:11.639 --> 00:16:18.000 other relationships and no one appreciates me and I just I love so fully. 225 00:16:18.559 --> 00:16:22.389 I'm an artist, you know, I'm passionate. You know, every single 226 00:16:22.509 --> 00:16:26.070 time I always think, you know, one day it's going to get better, 227 00:16:26.149 --> 00:16:27.990 because I'm the eternal optimist. I mean that's what daydream is about, 228 00:16:29.710 --> 00:16:33.059 but it just it hasn't happened yet. And you know, maybe maybe a 229 00:16:33.100 --> 00:16:37.940 Nashale, I can find me a cowboy and maybe he'll have some good values 230 00:16:37.179 --> 00:16:42.100 that you know. Right now I'm just living for fun because that's all I'm 231 00:16:42.100 --> 00:16:48.769 getting. I get it out of all this badness that have you. What 232 00:16:48.889 --> 00:16:52.450 have you learned about yourself and what you have been well, I think that 233 00:16:52.529 --> 00:16:56.690 I've learned that I need somebody who loves my music at the end of the 234 00:16:56.730 --> 00:17:00.610 day, like you have to love me for me, and music is, 235 00:17:00.250 --> 00:17:03.839 you know, ninety five percent of who I am. To quit the Cheetah 236 00:17:03.839 --> 00:17:07.759 girls. If you can't respect my art, you can't have my heart. 237 00:17:10.480 --> 00:17:14.319 In this press release that I have, which is the first thing that I've 238 00:17:14.359 --> 00:17:17.470 read about you, from project of the city, you said that you are 239 00:17:17.589 --> 00:17:21.509 learning that all of the pain you have been through on this earth is meant 240 00:17:21.589 --> 00:17:26.109 for something. What is something to you now and what is something to you 241 00:17:26.349 --> 00:17:30.500 going to be in the town? I think that right now, the something 242 00:17:30.660 --> 00:17:34.579 that all of the pain I went through is for is the people that reach 243 00:17:34.660 --> 00:17:40.099 out to me. Like I have people who are in Brazil and they message 244 00:17:40.180 --> 00:17:44.140 me and they tell me that like they're throwing these body positive pool parties and 245 00:17:44.220 --> 00:17:48.650 they want to play my song and that my song is giving them confident and 246 00:17:48.410 --> 00:17:52.890 I have little girls on ticktock making like videos of them showing their camp looks 247 00:17:53.410 --> 00:17:56.930 because they feel body positive and they're like dancing to my song. It's just 248 00:17:57.130 --> 00:18:03.160 like fascinating to me that people are like actually like listening to my music and 249 00:18:03.720 --> 00:18:07.200 that it took all of those eating disorders, all of those times that somebody 250 00:18:07.240 --> 00:18:11.000 called me fat, all of the Times that people gave me looks or all 251 00:18:11.000 --> 00:18:18.150 the Times I got rejected at sex parties to make that little girl feel confident 252 00:18:18.150 --> 00:18:22.630 about her camp look. Like that's powerful, right, it's really powerful. 253 00:18:22.789 --> 00:18:27.140 Private it. Yeah, and you know, I think that that's always going 254 00:18:27.180 --> 00:18:30.980 to be the answer, you know, in the future, like I always 255 00:18:30.980 --> 00:18:34.140 want to know that whatever heartbreak that made me feel like I had to end 256 00:18:34.220 --> 00:18:40.819 everything that I put into music or into some sort of art project and it 257 00:18:40.900 --> 00:18:45.089 makes somebody go no, I'm not alone, I can do more. That 258 00:18:45.289 --> 00:18:48.730 made me feel so much better about a lot of stuff I've been through because 259 00:18:48.730 --> 00:18:53.170 I'm sure you know, as pre size members of the Alphabet Baffia, you 260 00:18:53.569 --> 00:18:59.359 know that it's certainly a struggle and I never understood why. But when you 261 00:18:59.440 --> 00:19:03.359 do have those moments that people look up to you and draw inspiration from you, 262 00:19:03.880 --> 00:19:07.599 it sort of pays those those bad moments off. So I appreciate that 263 00:19:07.720 --> 00:19:11.029 you can look with all your success and little bent and still appreci really I 264 00:19:11.109 --> 00:19:14.150 think that at the end of the day, we're in the business of minding 265 00:19:14.309 --> 00:19:19.069 hearts and we're in the business of making people fall in love with themselves and 266 00:19:19.309 --> 00:19:23.269 the world, and I think that just you being here and being so present 267 00:19:23.940 --> 00:19:29.380 and being so vivacious and fierce and dragging people to their most fabulous life, 268 00:19:29.779 --> 00:19:33.019 that's so inspiring. Law like, never underestimate the power that you have within 269 00:19:33.140 --> 00:19:38.170 yourself, because just the fact that you're here in speaking on a podcast is 270 00:19:38.609 --> 00:19:44.250 something that there's some little drag queen in a field somewhere dreaming of doing that. 271 00:19:44.289 --> 00:19:48.369 Yeah, and even if it's not drag, I mean I hope that 272 00:19:48.450 --> 00:19:51.650 it's right. I got love drag, but I really think that there's something 273 00:19:51.730 --> 00:19:56.200 to be said that there's so many different ways to live a happy and fulfilled 274 00:19:56.279 --> 00:20:00.640 life and I want people to think outside the box, and that's kind of 275 00:20:00.799 --> 00:20:04.319 why I'm putting myself out there as a drag queen, because you know, 276 00:20:04.400 --> 00:20:08.670 between us girls, I mean excluse there. Clause is exclusive. Surprise. 277 00:20:08.750 --> 00:20:15.589 I'm never actually in drag whenever Qord these. So really I've never am. 278 00:20:15.950 --> 00:20:19.630 I've never am like I have all these beautiful problem photos. These the snacks 279 00:20:19.670 --> 00:20:26.019 are shook right now. I'm sure snacks. I feel like rep into this 280 00:20:26.140 --> 00:20:32.500 Coveteo episode and it's like those meddling kids. I think that what it's allowed 281 00:20:32.579 --> 00:20:38.170 me to do is really offer the insight without being in like the drag might, 282 00:20:38.250 --> 00:20:41.250 because drags a character. It's I mean to it's end. Jr Price 283 00:20:41.369 --> 00:20:47.650 is the carols. I understand. So I'm able to sort of introspectively step 284 00:20:47.690 --> 00:20:49.680 away and able to relate what I do to other people, and I don't 285 00:20:49.680 --> 00:20:52.079 really think I could do that if I possessed up and dragging. But my 286 00:20:52.240 --> 00:20:56.680 bigger point is is that it doesn't matter what you're doing. The point of 287 00:20:56.799 --> 00:21:00.720 my podcast really is that you just need to love what you do. You 288 00:21:00.799 --> 00:21:03.400 know, and that's really what's going to prepare you for it in so many 289 00:21:03.400 --> 00:21:06.829 different areas of your life. Okay, so what do you feel? Is 290 00:21:07.269 --> 00:21:11.549 this secret to a happy and fulfill man to just be one hundred percent, 291 00:21:12.309 --> 00:21:18.660 deeply authentically you? I think that if you put any mask on yourself, 292 00:21:18.980 --> 00:21:23.660 you're just going to suffocate. You have to be vulnerable, you have to 293 00:21:23.740 --> 00:21:29.619 reveal who you are. Every day you're chiseling away a piece of the statue. 294 00:21:29.619 --> 00:21:33.650 You're creating that work of art for the world to see, and you 295 00:21:33.769 --> 00:21:40.289 should never for one second be ashamed of any crack in the marble. Yeah, 296 00:21:41.569 --> 00:21:45.609 yeah, we're definitely a fog writer. I try in case nobody on 297 00:21:45.650 --> 00:21:49.359 this episode got enough Jr. I am quite sure that they will. So 298 00:21:49.480 --> 00:21:53.519 you can check out my website at Jr Price Dot Org, or you can 299 00:21:53.599 --> 00:22:00.920 follow me on ig at Joshua Randall price. I am on facebook at JR 300 00:22:00.039 --> 00:22:07.549 price pop and I'm on Tick Tock at JR price list. And, yeah, 301 00:22:07.670 --> 00:22:10.789 the all the emphos on my website, Jr Price Dot Org. All 302 00:22:10.869 --> 00:22:15.150 Right, day are thank you so much for coming to snack size and snacks. 303 00:22:15.269 --> 00:22:22.980 Until next time, go the fabulous hey snack. Thanks for hanging out 304 00:22:22.019 --> 00:22:27.019 with me and listening to this episode. 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