My Crawl Space Transformation: Lessons In Resilience, Empowerment, And Self-Reflection

KATHLEEN: Hello everyone and welcome to the Journey of an awakening spirit. This is Kathleen Flanagan, your host and we are streaming on the bold Brave TV Network today.

KATHLEEN: The forks that I'm using is love, happiness and balance. That's what I'm bringing to the show is that we have a lot of fun. We're happy and that we come out of this all balanced out.

KATHLEEN: What I want to do is start out and talk to you a little bit about my lovely crawlspace since we have been going down this road for a while. Yesterday I managed to get the, sump pump in. I was really happy about that and I've gotten 100 and 200 square feet of concrete that I have laid. I have done this.

KATHLEEN: Not a happy camper. My hands hurt, but I'm really excited. What we discovered and the reason I'm going to talk about this is because there's so many other messages that came in. This was when we pulled the poly back in the crawl space. We dug the trench and dug the hole for the sump pump pit.

KATHLEEN: We saw that a lot of foundation was falling away. Now, this is where I think most of the water came in, which was on the south side. We have it on the west side, but the bulk of it was coming in on the south side. Now, I've addressed by putting concrete there and I'm gonna lay another 40 square feet tomorrow.

KATHLEEN: But what was interesting is seeing that and as I was thinking about this last night in the event, Ken couldn't make it on the show was that I was going to, I realized a lot of things that this was a premonition. When this happened in May, this was a premonition.

KATHLEEN: As you all know that I just was whatever, whatever it's life, it's not being done to me. It's just life when I started reflecting back on this more. When David the plumber was here yesterday, I said, I got this really strange hole in the northwest corner and he said, well, this was framed for a door.

KATHLEEN: What do you mean a door? He said the bathroom is right above this. He said, no, it was framed for a door. So it could have been like a root cellar. That's interesting. That explains things because I was wondering how my house was standing up.

KATHLEEN: But what came out of this was realizing that all these emotions were going to come up and self-limiting beliefs were part of that. I had holes in my foundation on the outside, on the inside. Water's emotion.

KATHLEEN: Everything was coming up for me, but I didn't know what that was yet. When my friend died in August, everything started to percolate from her death. It was because of how she died, she had bladder cancer, which I think would be a horrific death.

KATHLEEN: But what spirit had told me when I was reflecting on her death was we all choose how we're gonna die.

KATHLEEN: I thought, well, that's really interesting.

KATHLEEN: When I thought about how our relationship was, which was very co-dependent on many levels. I mean, this is when I was in my twenties.

KATHLEEN: What happened was when she passed? Spirit said that we all choose how we're going to die. Because Susie had never actually changed and evolved and grew, she took a horrific death, which was pain. I mean, fear and anger. She carried that with her whole life and she walked away from me when probably in my thirties, I think it was.

KATHLEEN: She ghosted me back then. I didn't understand why because we were sisters in a past life and I really loved her and I missed her because she was in Florida and I was in Colorado and one day I managed to get a hold of her and I asked her why she did this.

KATHLEEN: She was so frustrated and angry at me and she said, Flanagan, I'm going to tell you why I'm doing this every time you decide you're gonna make a change, you go out there, you jump off a cliff and you land on your feet every frigging time. And I am so sick and tired of watching you do that.

KATHLEEN: I was stunned when she said that. I thought, well, what does that have to do with you? This is about me. What it had to do with is that I was reflecting back that I was making changes and growing in my life and she wasn't and she couldn't face it. That's why she died of bladder cancer.

KATHLEEN: Ok. All this comes up, all this codependency, all this resentment that I'm feeling and I was struggling with this because I'm in this David Bayer program as you know, and one of the things that we have to do because we have limiting beliefs that are actually tied to people. I didn't realize that.

KATHLEEN: When she came up, when she died, all this was coming up and it was percolating just like how my crawlspace was. It kept percolating. We get rid of the water and more water came up every time we dumped tons and I mean, we dumped hundreds of gallons of water out of that crawlspace and it kept coming up.

KATHLEEN: When I saw the holes on the outside of my house and I thought, oh my God, I could put my hands down there and there were three of them on the northwest side. I was freaking out. You know what, I'm just gonna put concrete over here and filled it with stone and that was my first concrete pad that I ever did.

KATHLEEN: There was a shift that occurred when I did that. That shift was that I am rebuilding a rock solid foundation. What I am rebuilding myself with is me. It's my core beliefs. It's who I am. It's what I believe.

KATHLEEN: It's not, you're worthless, you're unworthy, you're undeserving. You're a piece of garbage. It's none of that anymore. I'm rebuilding. As I'm rebuilding my foundation because this is like I thought a quest for God, that's kind of how my business partner told me, you're on a quest for God.

KATHLEEN: I said, I'm loving this. I said my body hurts. I do not like lifting 60 lb. bags like 30 bags at a time to do 40 square feet of concrete, but I'm doing it. I feel good and I feel proud. The other thing that came out of this when I was thinking about this last night was I trust my own intuition.

KATHLEEN: I trust what I'm saying because the guy that was going to come out and so called Fix My crawlspace for $25,000 was just going to put a band aid on it and never address the issue. That was one of the things that really got to me is thank God that I stopped.

KATHLEEN: I kept asking questions because I learned to keep asking better questions during this. I was patient, I was patient during this process. Because of all of that everything has come in.

KATHLEEN: So far I probably paid maybe $2,000 because I have an electrician coming in on Saturday to put the electrical in. I don't have to have a cord running across my entire basement to the one electrical box that I have down there.

KATHLEEN: That was empowering right there realizing that I was right, because men and not all men, but a lot of men think women don't have a clue and that we're ignorant or maybe it's just me. I don't know.

KATHLEEN: But all I know is that when I talked to this guy, the $25,000 guy who wanted to fix my basement and then put a band aid on and said, oh, for $7,000 we could do this. I said, but why that's not gonna fix the problem when the water is on the south side of the house? You're wanting to do the west side of the house.

KATHLEEN: Then he wanted to take the pipe to the fence line when my plumber came in, who I absolutely trust and is high, high, high integrity. When he came in, he said, Kath the bulk of the water came in on the south side of the house and you want it to drain out of the south side of the house.

KATHLEEN: Where we put the sump pump, he had to go towards the east side, but that's ok because most of the water pooled in the southwest corner. He said this is where it is because when we pulled the poly back, we still have mud down there. The south side is way, way wetter than the west side.

KATHLEEN: Everything that I was saying about my crawlspace and nobody was believing and trusting in me. I believed in it and I held on to it. What this did for me was part of that, establishing the boundaries. You don't get to tell me that I don't know what I'm talking about. It's my home. I know what my home is doing and I should know better. Just because you're a man doesn't mean I'm wrong.

KATHLEEN: I realized that I got very angry about that because I have allowed people, not just men, women to Susie was one of them to allow them to push me around because I had so little confidence in myself and so little irregard for myself and so little respect that I figured everybody knew better than me and I was so frigging wrong on that.

KATHLEEN: Oh my God. I know more than everybody else does. I have a direct connection with God. Ok. That is something right there that I have a connection with God. When I have that connection with God, guess what? I'm tuned in, I'm plugged in.

KATHLEEN: If I'm listening, they're not, it's not lies coming to me. It's the truth. But we have to sit and be patient and wait and keep asking questions over and over and over again and keep reframing them until you find the right answer. This was a premonition because what is it with the water?

KATHLEEN: That's what it was and what an empowering feeling this is. I can't even tell you how empowering this is. Yes, it's a pain. I still have a lot of work to do, but as far as I'm concerned, it's done. This is a done deal.

KATHLEEN: I mean, there should be no more water intrusion coming into my home and I have all this taken care of and I'm empowered and I feel great. Well, we're going to take a commercial break to hear a word from our sponsors and hopefully when we get back, we will have Ken on the show with us.

KATHLEEN: The other thing that I had realized last night about this show I'm gonna be bringing on a lot more guests.

KATHLEEN: When I chose to really start looking at what are my core values? What do I believe? How do I feel? How do I want to be treated and really dove into that? I seriously dove into that. I spent an entire week doing that - really dialing into who is Kathleen Flanagan and what does she think?

KATHLEEN: How does she feel? How does she want to be treated? How is she going to start treating other people? I'm usually really nice to people, a little grumpy and bitchy sometimes. But on a whole, I'm a very nice person and I'm very flexible. A lot of people aren't that flexible that I've discovered.

KATHLEEN: I decided I was going to start taking the show into a little bit different direction where I was going to bring in a lot more people, more guests. I have met some of the most amazing people in the last couple of weeks.

KATHLEEN: I've got more introductory calls for people to bring them on the show of amazing stories of what they've gone through as they evolved and woke up and remembered who they are. I really bring in some really quality people and I'm really, really excited and I hope you guys are really excited about what I'm doing.

KATHLEEN: What I decided is I was going to have a 15 minute discovery call with these people because I wanted to know how we connected, how I felt about them. What was their story? How did they present themselves?

KATHLEEN: But the main thing was, are they gonna show up because this show is live? I take this show very, very seriously. I am working my butt off to bring quality content to you. I don't think I've ever worked so hard for anything as I do for this show right now.

KATHLEEN: I had two people not show up on these calls and they set the appointment. I didn't, they set it, they got a hold of my calendar, they set up the appointment and I waited 10-15 minutes for them to show up and they didn't show up and it was only a 15 minute call.

KATHLEEN: Everybody has 15 minutes. A reminder, email automatically went out. Then a couple hours later I hear from one woman and it's like, oh, I'm so sorry, can we reschedule? And the answer is no, it was no.

KATHLEEN: Then I had a gentleman who was hours later or the next day, oh, I'm sorry, I got really busy. As if it was, this was all an inconvenience. This is how he pushed. I felt he pushed it on me and he was just super busy and his time is so much more important than mine.

KATHLEEN: You really think that you totally invalidated me by setting an appointment? I showed up. You didn't. He wanted to set it up that night for eight o'clock at night. Well, I have a life and no, I'm not gonna do interviewing at eight o'clock at night. I have my set hours. I have 9 to 5 - 4 days a week.

KATHLEEN: If you can't make something work in business hours, then I don't need you. I get another email from him a day or two later and said, well, how about if we meet at eight o'clock on a Sunday night?

KATHLEEN: This guy is totally on drugs and the answer was no, I had another person contact me and says, well, I'm so busy can we forgo the 15 minute call. I said no, because I have gotten really dialed in on what is important because my part of this is a test. This intro call was a test.

KATHLEEN: If you can't show up for an intro call, then you're not gonna show up for my show. Kind of like what Ken did today. He, for whatever reason, got it in his mind that we were on Zoom. It's all ok. It's all good. I get it and I'm not worried. It's perfect just the way it is. This is what spirit wanted and I'm flowing with it.

KATHLEEN: I think that part of what this is, is because last night I could barely sleep and Ken made a comment. I was really tired right before the show and I couldn't understand why, why am I feeling tired? I'm never tired on Tuesdays.

KATHLEEN: I go through a lot of other things on Tuesdays, but exhaustion is not one of them. he said, well, it is the 1010 and the portal is open. Oh, and I thought something changed. I don't know what it was, but a half an hour before the show I knew something had shifted and I didn't know what it was and it, obviously was this thing with Ken.

KATHLEEN: You're gonna be switching gears because I didn't sleep well last night. Last night I thought about everything that went on with my crawlspace and with the basement and what I've learned from this. It's monumental on many levels, monumental.

KATHLEEN: I can't even begin to tell you how much has come up for me on lots of things from my past, from when I was in my twenties, how much has come up in my past on resentments that I'm still holding that. I didn't even know that I held because I started doing more of that work last night on it.

KATHLEEN: This is supposed to be one of the things that's supposed to help you liberate yourself and really break all those bonds on limiting beliefs and moving further into that new direction.

KATHLEEN: That's what I've been doing. I'm taking control of my life in ways that I'm surprised I have been on this massive learning curve on podcasting and marketing and the show and finding people. It's all ok because it's the one thing I decided I'll never get Alzheimer's or dementia because I'm constantly learning. They say that happens because we stop learning.

KATHLEEN: Most people when they get out of college, that's the end of their learning. They don't do much else. I'm not doing that. I have always been learning. My attitude has always been, we are here to experience life and sitting on the couch doing drugs, drinking, smoking pot is not experiencing life.

KATHLEEN: I don't have to jump out of a perfectly good airplane or do a bungee jump or anything else. I am not a thrill seeker. I do not need to give myself a heart attack. I don't need to do that. I know what it's like to jump out of a plane because I have done it many times in my dreams without a parachute. Of course you go in and you're screaming halfway down and then you realize you're fine, but that's how I live my life.

KATHLEEN: I'm constantly changing. I saw a post on Facebook, I think it said you can only open the door from the inside. If you're going to make a change, it's the work you do on the inside. Our thoughts are everything. They're everything, how you perceive your life, how you perceive where you want to go.

KATHLEEN: I quit saying something like I don't know how to do it. I stopped saying that because you know what I do know how to do it. I may not know how to do it today or right now, but I do know how to do it. If I sit and be and research, I can make something happen. Listen to the way you talk to yourself.

KATHLEEN: There's always evidence that we go down this path of negativity every single time, every time a limiting belief comes up. We throw up our hands and I'm a victim and poor me. Well, why don't you just say yes, I am worthy.

KATHLEEN: Here's a limiting belief. I am unworthy, change it and say I am worthy and then look for the evidence of why you're worthy.

KATHLEEN: I'm worthy because I have this amazing man in my life who is, we're gonna grow old together. We decided that and we're already working that we're all getting old and tired. All this work we're doing, our poor bodies are, we're not 20.

KATHLEEN: I have this beautiful home. I have amazing cats right now. Thank God. I buried three of them once a year for the last three years. Now I finally have four healthy cats and they're a joy to be around. I have amazing friends that are becoming very loyal. I'm finding more and more of my tribe. Yes, I am worthy. I have evidence to prove that I am worthy. I'm smart. I'm not dumb.

KATHLEEN: I used to think I was dumb but I'm not. Yes, I'm an honor student. I was an honor student in college. Sometimes I wonder why I did that because of the stress I put on myself. I had set that up because I was told I was stupid. I didn't want to have anybody depend on me for anything. I played dumb and then I decided I didn't like that game anymore. I had to change it.

KATHLEEN: I have all this evidence to show that I am smart. When people try to tell me that, I don't know what I'm talking about, then I get upset. The other thing that I discovered too is like when Sal and I were working in the basement, he's digging the pit, I'm doing concrete and he's getting mad at me because he's tired.

KATHLEEN: He's frustrated. He's hurting. So am I and he says something to me. I snapped right back at him and yelled at him because first of all, you are not your father and I am not you. You don't get to talk to me like that ever.

KATHLEEN: I don't care if you're tired. If you think I'm doing it wrong. I don't care what you have to say. You're not doing it. If you think you can do this better than me then you do it and I'll go sit up on the couch and eat bon bons. That's my attitude.

KATHLEEN: You have to command that kind of respect because every time Sal is hurting or frustrated here becomes his dad. He's talking, it's like his dad is talking through his mind as his dad's talking to him as he's a little kid and I'm, I'm so over it, I'm over it and I don't tolerate it anymore.

KATHLEEN: I used to take it in and grumble. Then I would be, I'm gonna get even with you and I would plot and plan. That's what girls do a lot of times and I refuse to be that kind of person anymore because I have a mouth and I have a right to stand up for me.

KATHLEEN: I deserve to be treated with decency and kindness and love and respect. I do my best to do that for other people and I expect that in return, excuse me. It's never gonna happen unless you make those changes for yourself.

KATHLEEN: I was talking to the engineer and I have to bring this up because I think this is something pretty cool. When I was talking about that in the last three years, I had to bury three cats and two of them were babies and one was 18 years old. Angel was my 18 year old.

KATHLEEN: I still miss her today. She really was an Angel for me. We had the most unique relationship. Most people had never seen a relationship between a human and a cat like this before. Myself included. We went through hell together and back.

KATHLEEN: That was just how it was. She protected me. I protected her when Felix came in who's, the one who's always on TV with me when he came through, he decided he wanted to take Angel's place and Angel of course, allowed him. She taught him how to be a good cat towards me.

KATHLEEN: Felix has become very protective of me. He's very jealous. He's a cool cat, love that cat to death and Angel stepped aside during that period for the transition. I thought that was really big of her to do.

KATHLEEN: We had Shadow one and he was one of the cutest little kittens I've ever seen. This cat climb fences. He would do running leaps, land on my chest and fall asleep. He was full of life.

KATHLEEN: One day when he was going to go to the vet to get a shot or something, he started breathing hard and the vet actually made a comment as I did. We discovered that he had leukemia. We had to rush him to the hospital that night or he would die. He was diagnosed when the country shut down in COVID. That was sad.

KATHLEEN: We did 2.5 weeks of CBD which this cat really wanted to live and he just couldn't do it. It was sad to see him because I think if I would have known that he was HIV positive we could have done something for him and he was 7.5 months old. I don't think anything should die that young.

KATHLEEN: In June, we ended up getting a couple more cats. I wasn't going to bring home two. For some reason, I had a feeling we were gonna bring home bonded cats and we did. We brought Shadow one who is now Shadow Two, totally different personality, but very much Shadow.

KATHLEEN: Then we had little Grace. Grace as we kept looking at her had these squinty eyes. We finally took her to the vet and said something's wrong with her. We're not sure what it was. Well, she was very sick and we discovered she had an auto-immune disease.

KATHLEEN: We put her on all these medications. She was coming back to health and then when we moved in the house and took her back in for a checkup, she says, she's failing. What do you mean?

KATHLEEN: She looks the same and she deteriorated. Last year, she died on June 15th when Grace two was born. She died and I was in Montrose. She told me three days before she died. She said mom, I can't do this anymore.

KATHLEEN: I'm going to leave. I'm like, baby, I'm coming home. She's, no, I don't want you to come home. I don't want you to see me like this.

KATHLEEN: Sal would always show pictures of her and send me videos and we would talk. I would talk to her and she died. None of us could figure out why she died because she was always taking her meds and she was trying to tell us they weren't working and we weren't listening because we didn't know. Then I get a fedex package that says the hospital recalled the medication. They killed my cat.

KATHLEEN: Oh, did I have a say on Facebook about those people? The highest reviews I've ever gotten of what they did to my cat and she died. Shadow because they were bonded he would howl and howl and howl all night long because he was looking for her, even though he saw her die at the foot of the stairs, he saw her dead.

KATHLEEN: He howled. We decided last August that we were gonna see if we could, we were gonna wait until the fall, but we decided to do it earlier. We found this guy had two kittens. He said they were male and female and they both ended up being females. The minute we took Grace out of the carrier, he had called her something else.

KATHLEEN: I said, oh my God, this is Grace and you want to know how I know it's Grace because she's the only cat in the world that goes and catches grasshoppers. That girl brings those grasshoppers into my house every single time. She's a long hair. She's not the personality she was.

KATHLEEN: We have so many pictures of her looking up and talking. All Grace ever did was talk and talk and talk and talk. Now we have healthy cats and I'm so grateful that I have healthy cats other than the, when Felix got a little sick. He almost died because of the basement.

KATHLEEN: But we got that addressed right away. The whole point is, is when I listen to my animals because they talk to us just like our bodies talk to us when we're sick, you pay attention to them, and the joy that they bring. There's this unique relationship.

KATHLEEN: The engineer was saying, well, Angel is like you, she keeps rallying. You're gonna put her down. How many times I was trying to put her down because she was so sick and she's like, no mommy I don't want to die yet. She said, give me two years. I wanna die when I'm 18 years old. She told me when she wanted to die.

KATHLEEN: I got her to a year and two months. She wanted to die in December of 2020 or 2021. She died in February of 2021. Again. I was in Cheyenne working, came home and I called in and said, I'll be late coming back because I to take my cat in and put her down.

KATHLEEN: It was a sad day. It was a happy day in many ways. Because she wasn't suffering anymore. I have this picture of her laying on my lap. Angel doesn't lay on my lap. She always laid next to me and put her paw on me.

KATHLEEN: That day I got up at, I think, four or five o'clock in the morning and we spent all those hours because she went down at 9 a. m. We finally were at peace. Both of us finally came to peace that we were going to let her go and she was willing to go.

KATHLEEN: What a gift that was that we came to peace with this because she was an amazing animal for me. We just went through so much together and this bond that we could create with animals is unbelievable if we allow ourselves to do that because animals teach us so much. With bonded cats, when Grace two came into the house, Shadow stopped howling.

KATHLEEN: Literally, he stopped howling. He knew this was Grace as much as I knew this was Grace and they are inseparable. I mean, literally, they are inseparable. They follow each other around, they lay together. Everything they do is together. Grace one was so funny because she was like, I have Felix. I'm gonna go play with Felix and I'm gonna make you jealous.

KATHLEEN: It was so funny to watch her do this because she was independent. This one is dependent on Shadow and Shadow is happy. We have this house full of love because Samantha, she's a tuxedo and she follows Felix around everywhere and he's like a typical boy cat of leave me alone.

KATHLEEN: Then I love you and leave me alone and I love you. It's wild to watch animals because that's how we as humans are supposed to be too. We are supposed to be having that type of relationship with another human being. We don't seem to know how to connect because we let all of our garbage get in front of us. We let every hurt that ever happened to us, every pain that we ever suffered.

KATHLEEN: We use that to protect ourselves and shut ourselves down and close our hearts off. The one thing that I learned and it was the hardest thing I did was open my heart because you can't say I only want love and I don't want to feel pain that doesn't work that way. It doesn't work that way at all. You open your heart and that's what you do.

KATHLEEN: If you don't open your heart, don't ever expect to have anything you want in your life because you will never have it because you have shut yourself down. When I watch a cat who has suffered because he lost his bonded mate.

KATHLEEN: Then she comes back in another cat form and he stopped howling. He didn't go down this road of, well, I was hurt and I've been, and I lost her and she died and go leave me alone and I'm gonna suffer the rest of my life. No, he accepted her and we don't do that as humans, but we should be doing that as humans because every person is an opportunity for your growth.

KATHLEEN: It's an opportunity for them to grow. It's an opportunity for you guys to discover things that you never knew about each other or yourself because people are nothing more than mirrors of who you are right now.

KATHLEEN: And that's important to realize.

KATHLEEN: When I was putting all these cats down, I was so grateful that I gave these animals the best life they could have in a short amount of time because Grace was a year and three months old when she died and Shadow was 7.5 months old.

KATHLEEN: As far as I'm concerned, babies shouldn't die, but babies do die for whatever reason, for whatever reason they came in that way. But what those animals did is they opened my heart more and I didn't shut down and we said, let's just try to help Shadow. We brought in two more babies. Now, four cats is enough.

KATHLEEN: I'm not going to have any more cats even though I'm a crazy cat lady and everybody calls me a crazy cat lady because I want to eventually have a cattery. I want to rescue cats. That is a goal that I'm going to do someday because cats are so cool and so misunderstood and they are the coolest animals on the planet. Dogs are great too.

KATHLEEN: But there's just something about a cat. We are a family. We sit in the living room together, they watch TV with us. When we're outside with them as they're hunting grasshoppers. These poor grasshoppers, I keep telling them to save themselves, but they keep coming back.

KATHLEEN: That's part of the joy. That's part of the reason why we have animals in our lives because they help us to open ourselves up. They help us to bring love in. And yes, it's painful when we have to put them down and yes, we'll do just about anything to save them.

KATHLEEN: But financially, realistically it's a cat or it's a dog or it's whatever it is you're not supposed to kill yourself financially to save an animal because it's an animal. Yet we do this to humans. I have a living will. If I'm incapacitated, you're going to cut the cord. I'm not going to live like a vegetable. There's no way I'm going to do that. That is inhumane.

KATHLEEN: The only people getting benefit out of that in our frigging hospitals and the doctors and the pharmaceutical companies and they've already stolen and done too much damage to our country as it is now that they're not gonna get any money out of me. I'm not gonna tolerate it. I'm not. I rather pull the plug because you're not living.

KATHLEEN: If you're on life support, you're not living and to keep somebody suffering like that is very, very selfish of a person to do that. Yes, I'm sure my vet thought I was selfish with Angel, but I wasn't selfish with Angel.

KATHLEEN: She kept rallying back and they kept watching her rally and her blood test proved that over and over and over again. I listened with my heart and that's when you're listening with your heart, you always, always, always know what to do.

KATHLEEN: This show was definitely a little bit different than what I was expecting. I really thought we would have some more interesting conversations, but I think this was a very interesting conversation because it's all about reflecting on your life.

KATHLEEN: If we don't stop and reflect on where you are in your life right here right now, you, then you don't know where you're going. You always have to know where point A is. And we may not always understand where we're going or why, why things are happening to us.

KATHLEEN: But there is always a grander purpose and you are always, always, always being guided in that direction. That is the one thing that I, I can bet my life on, I can bet my life on that. There's no doubt in my mind. I have been protected and taken care of even in my worst of worst hours I have been taken care of.

KATHLEEN: I was never, ever, ever alone. I learned all of that in 2008 and 2009 when I was in Chicago, when I was writing the books, Dancing Souls and two of them are already up and out on Amazon or my Kathleen M Flanagan site.

KATHLEEN: It talks about what it's like to wake up. It talks about the dark night of the soul. It talks about opening your heart and allowing love in and wanting to be a better person and what that really means to be. It's not gonna happen overnight. We are a process.

KATHLEEN: We live in a 7-Eleven world but we are not 7-Eleven people. We go through a process, you create a business, it's a process. You develop a relationship, it's a process. Everything is a process. Our devices are totally different and you have to unplug from those devices to reconnect with you, reconnect with another human, reconnect with nature.

KATHLEEN: That's the only way you're going to start remembering who you are is walking away and doing something different.

KATHLEEN: I have a lot of tools on the Kathleen M Flanagan site that I have used over the years that have been profound. They have been profound. I have a meditation out there that the Archangel Ariel is participating in as far as how to heal a broken relationship. If you're in a divorce or whatever it is, how to smooth it over to get through that transition, to put the bitterness aside to where your spirit is talking to their spirit.

KATHLEEN: I have products, awakening spirit products. That's all aromatherapy. The first thing that I discovered with that product line was I started to hear my body talk in ways I never heard before because our bodies talk to us all the time. I may not know how to fix what's wrong, but I can tell you what's wrong and, and doctors don't always think that we should know that, but we do.

KATHLEEN: If you're listening, you do. If you know that something is not going right for you, then you say something and you stand up for yourself for that. That's why awakening spirit is, the products are amazing. They are amazing. My CBD company. I created this product because of Shadow. I watched Shadow come back practically from the dead for a couple of weeks because of CBD.

KATHLEEN: We're wired for it. I'm an alchemist. I know how to bring ingredients together to help you to remember who you are and you might think this is all woo, woo and maybe it is in your mind, but it's not because if you look at the chemicals you're putting on your body and the chemicals you put on your hair and the chemicals that you're eating.

KATHLEEN: All of this stops us from remembering who we are. Our bodies are machines that are designed to work perfectly, but we abuse them and if you start respecting your body and taking care of it and watching what you eat and what you're putting on your body and what you're putting in your body, you're going to see a massive change in you all together.