Hello Everyone!!
This would be my first very vulnerable blog and get ready for it.
My mother has had cancer three times now. She was just diagnosed for the third time but this time has been very different. She has a new surgeon and the Drs are just not communicating and one has said one thing and one the other and I simply cannot believe that they wouldn't pull their shit to gather when it comes to talking about someone's life.
One was as simple as "just a pill and a lump removal" the other says it has metastasized and they cannot do anything about it. This woman has been through so many tragedies in her life its hard to even count now. As her daughter I tell her that she is not the sick person these things are not who she is but it gets very hard when it keeps happening again and again and again.
On top of my mother's news I just had my first mammogram. When it was over the tech came over to me gave me a hug and said if they call you back don't worry its probably about your history and they just want to be safe. I felt her love but of course felt like they were definitely calling back because she saw something.
I never received a phone call but I did get a letter in the mail saying it was dense breast tissue. Fine, no big deal right? I'll just have to go every 6 months but whatever helps catch anything quicker with the history I have paved in my family tree. I finally got a ahold of the Dr to schedule the next test thinking it was for both breasts and a totally normal procedure. I was informed on the phone that it was actually just dense in one area of my right breast. WAY DIFFERENT than just dense breast tissue all over.
I am getting brca gene tested and I will 100% share my journey about that when the time is right.
But Jacquie, what does this have to do with parenting?!
This is the part of parenting when you become your parent's parent as an adult. I love my parents with all of my heart and I will fight to get them all of the proper care and support they need and deserve. I want my kids to see that they're mother does everything she can for the people she loves in her life.
What will happen? Will my mom get chemo? Will they refuse at this point? Will I need even more testing? Will this be a mother daughter combo effort right now? I certainly hope not but let me tell you, My mother and I are fighters. No matter what happens with either of us we are strong and both of us got this!!
Sending love and light to all of the people in the tragically huge community that cancer has been a part of. It can be so silent and so scary.
