My Relationship with The Future

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What is up weirdos, you're listening to the Manic Pixie weirdo. I'm Abigail, your host. And this is the podcast where we talk about all the different kinds of relationships that we can have in our lives. And this week, we are talking about my relationship with the future.

 

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So here's what we're gonna do. We're gonna talk about the dark bleak stuff first, get that shit out of the way. And then we're going to talk about some hopeful stuff. Like, what gives me hope for the future.

 

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Because that shit is bleak. You guys, like from

 

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I don't know from like, from where I'm sitting, shirt is bleak. shit is real bleak. She does dark.

 

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She just getting kind of scary. And

 

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you know that,

 

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that hasn't felt good.

 

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And I don't know if that it's like, I feel like it's one of those things where it's like, it's always been kind of like doom and gloom. I guess. Like, everybody's always, like, you know, the future's, so it's going to be so shit, like, all this stuff. And

 

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similar if so, from like, a historical perspective, I would say,

 

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like, shit has gotten like, progressively better.

 

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From like, a historical perspective, like context.

 

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As far as like, so like, that would be like, the macro, right? Like, that's on, like a macro scale, zoom out and look at it from like, you know,

 

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I don't know, the last like

 

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5000 years or something, you know, like, shit has gotten, you know, progressively better as far as, like, where we are.

 

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Kind of like mentally and emotionally and, like, all of that sort of stuff. Like from a human perspective, I feel.

 

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Um, but then like, on a bit like on a micro scale, it's definitely like, shit is bleak.

 

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It's just not looking great. Like, and I like I said, I know, it feels like everybody says that, like, it feels like all

 

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All, all, like, all the generations were like, this is like, what it's going to be, you know, like, it's all downhill from here.

 

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Kind of a thing.

 

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I feel like the this is kind of

 

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like, to a certain extent

 

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more realistic now. Like, I understand why

 

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it is kind of like, why everything kind of is the way that it is. And

 

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you know, and, and I understand more about like,

 

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how that like, what the future implications of those things are going to be, you know, and it's just

 

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I get really bogged down like, I really do I get really bogged down by like the weight of it, because it's so heavy and it's so like

 

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you know, everybody compares like depression

 

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to or okay, I guess not everybody not everybody compares to depression to like drowning.

 

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But I've heard the comparison most often.

 

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That depression feels like you're drowning.

 

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I, to a certain extent, disagree. I think that it's more

 

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it's slower than that for me.

 

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It's more painful than that. For me. It It feels very drawn out and very

 

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almost like death by 1000 cuts kind of kind of video

 

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and those 1000 cuts are kind of,

 

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you know, all the different like facets of

 

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What we're what we're seeing what we're witnessing what we're a part of

 

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what,

 

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like the sort of collective consciousness is sort of gearing towards

 

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you know, it's

 

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it's hard, and it's rough, and it sucks a lot.

 

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There's a lot of shit with this. And I feel like that's kind of what you get when you

 

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begin to sort of peel back the layers of

 

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like, what is happening?

 

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And, like, it makes perfect sense to me it like then why people start believing in like, you know, like conspiracy theories and stuff like that.

 

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Because it's like, well, if they're lying about, like, if all of this was a lie,

 

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then like, why not? Because at that point, it's like, now we've entered into a fantasy world where it's like, anything is possible, like anything, like anything could be.

 

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Like real. And

 

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I don't know, I don't

 

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I, I've definitely not like,

 

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I'm not necessarily

 

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like, on the verge. Sorry, this episode is like, so all over the place. That's just because it's like very

 

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I don't know, the

 

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My thoughts are just like, all over the place. And just like going rapidly, one at a time. Because it's such a big topic, like, it's so

 

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it's so overwhelming sometimes. Just like thinking about the future, and you know, it. And I think that's one of the reasons why my thoughts are just like, super scattered, because it's just, it's, it's like, there's a million different things that you could talk about. With regards to the future, you know, you could talk about so many different things.

 

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And so many things that just look like

 

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this, or that made me feel like very defeated, you know, that it's just like, Fuck, man, really, like, at this point, I'm not shocked by anything. Like, it's really bad. Like, it's just like, of course, like that. Like, of course, that happened.

 

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Like, obviously, because at this point, it's like, why, why wouldn't this horrible thing, like occur? You know, and I don't, and I can't, like, I've tried reading, like, you know, like, articles that like, like meaningless articles. Like I'm specifically talking about, like, when you look at the news or whatever, like, it's just very, like, I don't know, like, I don't

 

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I don't know, like, it's

 

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because like, I've tried to listen, or read or, you know, consume, I guess,

 

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sort of, like bullshit news, you know, like,

 

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in the sense that like,

 

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like, stuff that I don't actually give a shit about, like, stuff that I don't actually care about, but like,

 

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I guess is happening and is like, supposedly relevant in the world. So like, that would be like celebrity news or like, you know, like, trash TV or whatever.

 

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Like, I've definitely tried going like that route. And seeing like, you know, if that sort of numbs like the reality doesn't, doesn't do shit mount. It's like trying to give you yourself a local anesthetic. Like, it just might as well not like it just it does nothing.

 

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For it, it just does nothing to ease the pain. It does nothing to help like, it just, it's not going to work.

 

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And

 

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I don't know. I mean, like,

 

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like, if that's your, like, if it works for you, like, I get it, by all means, like, consume whatever, like, that's fine.

 

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We've all got our vices, I'm not gonna judge you too harshly on that one. Like, I get it. You know, sometimes you just need, you know, trash TV or whatever. Like, I get it.

 

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Whatever.

 

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It's just like, I can't do it for very long. Like, I can't. I can't cuz it's like, I know. It's one of those things was like, I know it's

 

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Just like I really wish I could go back to the sea, and this is a problem, okay? I really wish I could go back to the days when I knew nothing. However,

 

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I don't really feel like if I'm, I know I have a really bad memory, like, I don't remember a lot of like, I don't remember a lot of my life. And

 

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I remember like bits and pieces. I have bits and pieces of my life, but I don't have like, like, I couldn't tell you from this time to this time, like, I don't know. But anyway, so like, I know, I have a bad memory. But I just like, I don't think that there was ever really a time where I didn't know that like it was all bullshit, if that makes sense. Like, if I really sit and think about it, like, even from like a very small child, like, I like I knew this was bullshit. Like, I knew this thing called life was just like, what the like, just mad chaos, like just utter chaos.

 

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And that it like doesn't make any sense the way that we do it, or whatever. It's just because it's just like living with extra steps.

 

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And like more stress and stuff, and so it just like it just doesn't like, if I'm being honest. Like I said, it makes no sense to me like why we do things that we do. Which is why humans fascinate the shit out of me. They really do they fascinate the shit out of me because it's like, why? And so I guess what I was gonna say earlier was that like, I'm not

 

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I'm not quite

 

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to like, the George Carlin,

 

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like,

 

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explanation of it all, in the sense that like, I'm not

 

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like he is famous for saying that. Like, he basically decided that and I'm paraphrasing here, I don't know the exact quote. But it's something along the lines of like, he basically decided that he is indifferent and doesn't care what happens with this grand experiment called humanity

 

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that he likes individuals, people on an individual basis.

 

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However,

 

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once they start forming in groups, like clotting in groups, whether that be around like, you know,

 

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like, an ideology or

 

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like a common like, whatever their comp, like once they start clotting into groups, that's when he begins to have like, problems with them with humans.

 

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So I don't think I'm like, there, if that makes sense, where I'm like, I don't

 

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like I definitely

 

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don't really care how this like grand, like, if it is a grand experiment if humans are a grand experiment, like I don't really I don't have like a dog in that fight. I guess I just, I kind of don't care.

 

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Like I feel like we're going to be fine. My husband recently said that he believes that you know, like

 

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humans are the cockroaches of the universe. Like what like like we will find a way like it's already done kind of thing. I don't I don't have an issue with that. Because again, I don't really care if like, like what happens with humanity like on a whole

 

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because I'm just one person kind of thing.

 

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I don't it doesn't really matter to me if like the eight like if the eight and what I mean by this is like if the aliens showed up tomorrow and like Independence Day, this whole situation I wouldn't necessarily like be mad at the aliens. You know, I just be like well, okay, I mean

 

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right on like good for the aliens or whatever. Like I don't like because I just don't care

 

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and but I but there also is a part of me see and this is why I don't think I'm like fully at that place is because like there is a part of me that is like but I do like but I kind of do

 

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and I mean that on like so like what I mean by like the I don't like the I don't care part that's like on a macro scale right like that's on the one that's like humanity as a whole

 

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like on the macro scale, on a micro scale. Like if you zoom in like I do care, I do give a shit because I have like I have people I have other like I have dogs and certain fights. You know, I I've invested

 

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like time

 

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human energy and like, you know, that kind of thing into like relationships with other humans. And

 

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Alright, I've tried to, because I'm still, you guys, I'm still not convinced, like, I just don't I don't know how to human Well, I really don't. And I'm trying, like, that's part of the reason why like, I hold Twitter spaces, and I like have the show and

 

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you know, all of those things is because I, I'm, I want to get better at human being.

 

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And the problem is humans are confusing, and don't really make a lot of sense sometimes. And

 

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very contradictory.

 

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They're very, like, do as I say, not as they do. Don't get me wrong. There are exceptions, obviously, to all of these things. There's obviously exceptions.

 

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And I think I've found a few exceptions to the rule. So that's cool. That's kind of cool.

 

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I just,

 

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I don't know, like, I don't think I don't think I'm at the point where like,

 

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because if I truly didn't care that I like wouldn't. And I would even argue to a certain extent that, like, Carlin,

 

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like, didn't really believe that to a certain extent, like he was like, he was talking about it on like, a macro scale. And then, like, on a micro scale, I bet if you asked him like, cuz he has like, children. And so it was like, I bet if you asked him, like, you know, but does he give a shit about like, you know, his family or whatever, like, he seemed, especially if sorry, I like just watched the George Carlin documentary, the the two part documentary, it's really long, you guys, it's so long, it took me forever to finish.

 

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But it's, it's pretty good. It's really good. It's very interesting. But like, he didn't have a family. And so like, I if I were, if I were a betting person, I would say that.

 

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Like, he gave a shit about them. So I wouldn't say that, like,

 

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you know, he's completely devoid of, like care.

 

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So it just kind of, I guess it just kind of depends on like, which kind of scale you're talking about.

 

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Listen, if you,

 

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if you don't, if you don't care, either, like, it's like, that's fine. Or if you do care, like it's totally fine. Like it.

 

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We need both kind of thing, I guess,

 

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is what I'm trying to say. And,

 

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and so like that kind of

 

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I don't

 

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I don't know. Okay, because the future, like I said, from a macro scale, promising, like we're making slow, steady progress, slow, steady, progress up is good. Like, that's fine. Like, we need to just keep on that trajectory. Now, the problem is that, keeping on that trajectory, it means we have to update shirt. And I feel like a lot of the world is still stuck in like 1985.

 

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Which nothing wrong with 1985 Okay, like, I don't I'm not hating on 1985 I'm just saying like, especially from like a technology standpoint, and like, that kind of thing. Like, we've got to come on, like

 

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like, I want Fuck, I was like, Do you have any idea what the fuck I was promised as a child.

 

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Like, I was promised that we would have like, flying cars, and hoverboards. And like, you know, where you and you'd like, you know, be able to, like, walk around and there would be like, no crime. And there was like, you know,

 

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all this like, cool stuff that was like available for everybody to have and like, you know, when you go to the grocery store and your you know, and

 

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you know, like, there's all it's just like, I don't know, like, I was promised so much fucking cool shit. Like we had the Jetsons growing up, we had fuckin, you know, like, I mean, I've still I saw like, back to the future like, I've seen it. I understand.

 

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Like, y'all promise some shitzu Okay, I understand. We've all been promised shit and it's not here, and I'm very disappointed. Okay.

 

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I was promised so much fucking cool shit. And we have none of it. So and the more that I like look into like, why we don't have cool shit is the reasons get very dark and very bleak very quickly. And

 

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and that sort of I guess that's sort of like

 

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what I mean is that like once you start unpacking this shit once you once you're like, Well what why don't we have cool shit? Like but like why not? Why can't we just like, you know,

 

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have flying cars like what? Like are we not?

 

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Like we're I guess we're just not that advanced

 

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oh god I can hear everybody coming out now.

 

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Yes we are yes we are comparatively, you know, to whatever Baba will like okay okay okay, okay.

 

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I understand what you're saying yes, that's not what I mean. I mean like advanced in the sense that like,

 

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not everybody has access to it or, you know,

 

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where it's like feasible and affordable for everybody to have or why not just like give it? I don't understand. Like, weak

 

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I don't

 

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And okay, yes. So like, again, once you start, like unpacking the shit, and once you start like going, and you start really looking at shit, and you're just like, okay, so we don't have cool shit. Because like this will What about and then you start to just like follow it down the rabbit hole.

 

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Sorry, oh my gosh, that was so loud. So sorry.

 

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I just

 

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you begin to understand.

 

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Like,

 

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once you begin to understand the why behind questions

 

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all of the other questions start to like fall into place, and then you kind of just have to

 

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I guess, like, go with it or whatever.

 

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And you kind of begin to understand, like,

 

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why certain things are certain ways and why.

 

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You know, like, even to a certain extent, like cultural things and like,

 

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like social things and stuff like that, where you're just like, oh, like you begin? Gosh, the more you unpack it, the more it's just like, why, but why? Why this is dumb. This is stupid. Why do we do it? Like this?

 

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Makes no sense. Like, it makes no fucking sense. You guys, it I think that's the most frustrating part is that it's just like, none of it makes any fucking sense. And we're all just doing it because like A because A, like we're either being told that like, that's what we need to do. Which is not a good reason for me like any, just ask anybody in my life like it. If you can't give me a reason that I find good to do something. It's not gonna happen. It's not happening. Like, it's just no. Why? Because what like, it's devoid of purpose in my mind, and therefore, it means nothing. Literally, in all aspects of that, in all facets of that, like it, it just it is devoid of purpose. And therefore it's like, well,

 

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I don't think so.

 

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And I just

 

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humans fascinate me

 

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on so many levels, on so many fucking levels.

 

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And one of those levels is that like,

 

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we're obviously like, intelligent,

 

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obviously, like, we've been able to figure out how to build great big things, and figured out how to like, manipulate, you know, we're basically wizards. If you put it like, we're basically like, wizards and witches, like it's kind of interesting, because we have figured out how to like, manipulate the world around us and use like certain outlines be able to harness certain elements and I mean, like, yeah, like it's

 

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we have the power

 

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to do all of the things right we have the power we we've we very clearly have the power and ability to be able to do all of the things like to have nice shit to make sure everybody has basic needs covered like all

 

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Like all the things like world peace is literally within our grasp. We are just we're just staring at it and just like laughing at it

 

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like that's what we're doing we're

 

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world fucking peace you guys is proud is like realistically like it if if like if we all got together and like banded together and like said well enough was enough like we're not putting up with this shit anymore and we can all collectively decided like as as as a whole unit like as a species like this is like we're not doing this anymore

 

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we're doing something else we're trying something else something that works for everybody kind of a thing like that legitimately could be within our grasp and like five years, no joke if we all got together if we all banded together like if everybody around the world banded together and like and just was like no. Just was like, No, we're fucking done with the bullshit. Um, yeah, we I estimate within five to 10 years. We could have we could establish like, world peace if we all got together. Yeah, and everybody was on the same page, see that?

 

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Everybody has to be on the same page.

 

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Like

 

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you know, but that's why

 

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so, okay, I hate to use this phrase, but it's, I mean,

 

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it's kind of fitting for

 

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what I'm about to say, you know, they say Rome wasn't built on a day

 

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I don't know the rest of the quote. I believe there's rest of the quote but I don't know that.

 

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And what I take to mean by that is that not only was not it was Rome not built in a day Rome wasn't built by one person

 

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and

 

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and so it's like this The moral of that story is like, you know, patients like learn to be patient kind of thing. I am not I am an impatient person.

 

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i i

 

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I'm working on it. I think we're getting better as far as like our patients is concerned.

 

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I'm not perfect.

 

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I will probably be working on it my whole life

 

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I mean, hopefully eventually we get to a place where

 

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it begins to become second nature like a habit. That's the goal.

 

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That's what we hope but

 

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you never know.

 

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You know, one day maybe.

 

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And I don't

 

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and so like my point in saying that is that like

 

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the future Yes. Obviously the futures

 

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fourth rough.

 

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there does

 

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come a point though, where like, eventually these things will occur eventually these things will happen like world peace will avenge I believe World Peace eventually will be achieved.

 

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It might look different than what I imagined it to be.

 

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But,

 

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you know,

 

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that's okay. Different isn't necessarily bad. It's just different.

 

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What scares me is

 

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like the fight that it's going to take to get to that place.

 

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Or at least to begin to like, because we're not even.

 

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We haven't even like,

 

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like, the first the finish line, okay, is nowhere close. Like, just except that okay, the finish line is nowhere close.

 

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We are not even halfway like, nope, not not not even halfway.

 

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At most, we're probably like three or four feet from the start. Okay. Um, progress has been made though. Obviously, progress has been made. It's just slow and steady progress, which I think is the most frustrating part. And

 

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especially because I'm not a patient person.

 

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At least that's why it's, or one of the reasons why it's super frustrating for me is because I'm not a patient person. And I, you know

 

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from again, this is all from like a macro perspective like I, but I do believe that world peace will be achieved, one day would not in my lifetime, not a chance.

 

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Now that doesn't mean that I know that's bleak. I know that's fucking bleak as shit.

 

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I get it, like I really do. I just don't.

 

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Like

 

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I want to make an effort to be in the direction, I want my effort to be in the direction of like, furthering that goal, and not like hindering that goal. If that makes sense.

 

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At least that's like, my goal is that like, you know, world peace would be achieved.

 

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At some point, you know, down the line in human history,

 

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whether I'm around for it or not, just because like, That sounds lovely. That sounds really lovely.

 

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Everybody has everything that they need, and everybody's taken care of, and nobody is wanting or really needing for anything. And

 

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you know, they're, we're just thriving. As a species, we're just thriving, we're not hindering one another, we're not harming one another. We're not.

 

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We're healing. We have heal, we will have healed a lot.

 

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By that point, I hope and we will begin to like,

 

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Rediscover who we are as a species, and

 

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you know, all of the things

 

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like, yeah, that sounds fucking great to me like that. Yeah, let's make that happen. Okay, how do we do that? It's fucking dreary and rough.

 

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I know I keep using those words, but it's true. It's just fucking true. Like, it's just dreary and rough.

 

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And

 

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while it looks bleak Yes, obviously

 

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there's hope I think

 

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I'd say he gives me hope the younger generations they give me I'm so I'm a millennial.

 

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But they're the generations younger than me. Give me a lot of hope.

 

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They

 

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they really do they

 

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they're kind of like

 

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you know, I don't know.

 

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Like

 

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they're realizing younger, that like it's bold.

 

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Shit that this is bullshit.

 

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At least here in the United States, it does seem like other countries are kind of just like already on top but

 

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which is great news for them, you know, good for them

 

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I don't know, I I

 

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thought we were farther along than this, you guys. I thought we were farther along

 

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in humanity, I guess in our evolution

 

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then

 

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I guess we actually our wishes, like super disappointing. You know, it's like, so disappointing because it's just like,

 

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like, we're not as far as I thought we were and like, are we like, we're still, like I saw on the news the other day

 

35:57

that there is a bill coming into the Texas Legislature to allow

 

36:05

or to not allow, excuse me, to not allow employers

 

36:11

unlike places to not be able to discriminate based on like hair, based on your hair, your hair as in like the hair on the top of your head, hair.

 

36:31

And that just like, bummed me out, man. Like, I don't think it was like, I don't think it was meant to bum me out.

 

36:42

Like, I think it was meant more in like the context of like, woke like, this thing is happening. Um,

 

36:49

you know, like, this is good. And it's like, yes, while I understand that it's good. It's incredibly like sad and depressing. But like, we have to have laws around this. Okay? Like, I thought

 

37:04

I didn't.

 

37:07

Humans are so picky. They're so nitpicky about like, just shit that doesn't like, just how can this possibly matter? Like, and I don't mean that, like, it doesn't matter in the sense that like, it's not, like important, and like, this bill shouldn't be brought to like, you know what I'm saying like that. That's not what I'm saying is not like, you know, like, important. It's the, it's the fact that like, it has to exist in the first place. That is very depressing to me.

 

37:44

Which is why I say humans are fucking nit picky, and we're super picky as shit. Like we are the five year old picky. Like eaters, we're the picky ones. We're the ones that like,

 

37:55

this is where the aliens have been coming at you guys, because the words were the ones that like no one wants to hang out with. Okay, I've bad news. Like it's true. Okay, the Aliens aren't here yet.

 

38:08

And, or they haven't revealed themselves in their fullest extent, to, you know, mass portions of the human population because, because

 

38:21

we're not cool enough. We're still like, we're still at the fucking kids table. Okay. I don't even think I think we just made it to the kids tables. We're really honest. Like we were, we were the babies of the universe for quite a long time. Like, Oh, they're so cute. Oh, my gosh.

 

38:39

And it's like, yeah, but now they're not. They're growing up. It's like, it's like, yeah,

 

38:45

they're growing up, and they have their own like, thoughts and feelings and, you know, things of that nature. And they were like, five, okay, and we can't figure out

 

38:57

because we're only we're communicating with people on this level, like that is that is how, like,

 

39:06

rudimentary

 

39:09

this stuff seems to me. And it's just in it's like, Oh, God.

 

39:15

We're just like, this is one of the reasons why I'm like super terrified to be a parent because it takes a long time.

 

39:24

And I'm kind of like a greedy instant, like, I want it now kind of a person.

 

39:32

And so it's like,

 

39:34

like,

 

39:36

if the human race is only about four or five or six years old.

 

39:41

We'll say like, five, split the difference, we'll say five.

 

39:46

We are

 

39:49

like

 

39:51

we're gone through it. Okay. And we've had some trauma we've definitely like had, like, not a great childhood as far as like we've for sure how

 

40:00

It's like trauma and shit.

 

40:03

And now we're like acting out

 

40:07

as a species. And so we're, you know,

 

40:12

doing what we do best. And we're infighting. And we're, you know, we're picking on each other. And we're,

 

40:21

we're trying to like point fingers, and we're trying to end it's just my goodness.

 

40:28

From like,

 

40:31

from like, the outside perspective, like looking in on it, it's, it's very just like,

 

40:38

how do we?

 

40:42

How do you tame this behavior? Like, how do you heal this behavior? How do you

 

40:49

like,

 

40:51

not dismiss it, because you don't want to dismiss it? Because you don't want to invalidate the behavior? Because it is valid behavior, because there has been a lot of like, trauma and, you know, things that have happened to humans.

 

41:07

And so, like, how do we

 

41:11

begin to, like, heal that and sort of direct our energy into like, more positive ways and like teaching how, like teaching humanity like how to sort of foster like, love and nurturing, like nurture and care, and,

 

41:30

like, empathy? And like, these kinds of like, how do we foster and like, bring that

 

41:39

bring those elements out, and like, be vulnerable? about it?

 

41:46

How do we make that happen, because, like, that's really, I think, sort of,

 

41:54

especially when dealing with children, like, you have to be very careful and mind you, like,

 

42:01

like, if we, if I'm right, and we're only like five years old,

 

42:06

then our brains like collectively, have been, like, I don't know, if you've looked into the science or like the research, like, into like, what, like trauma and like complex trauma, and, like PTSD, and, like things of that nature, like look like.

 

42:27

It's

 

42:31

like we're acting out as a species, we are not okay, um, we're throwing temper tantrums, um, you know, like, we're not.

 

42:46

But we also don't know how to communicate either, like, with one another, like, effectively, I think that's like, really sort of, like part of it. And if we only know how to communicate on like, a five year old level,

 

43:01

you know, it's really hard to like reason, with a five year old, it's really hard to

 

43:07

have them like, understand and like latch on to it, and then be able to, like, absorb it and understand and then and then, like, be able to process it. It's also really hard for five year olds to have like, emotional regulation, and things of that nature. And so it's like, it's it you have, but you also have to be very, very, like delicate, and you don't want because you don't want to, like re traumatize, and like, you know, that sort of thing. What you want to do is you want to help foster like healing. And so like if, like, if the trauma like starts to come up and like present itself and it will present itself in like various and sundry ways, and forms in the form of like, action, and behavior. And so like,

 

43:57

you want if that stuff does get like brought to the surface, when it's brought to the surface, you want to acknowledge it, you want to not necessarily like react to it, you just want to acknowledge it, validate it, you want to make sure that they feel like heard and you want and then you have to, like open a line of communication and trying to explain anything to a five year old is like, especially when

 

44:28

they because they're not the best communicators either, you know, and, and, and it's not their fault, like that's fine, it's not their fault.

 

44:39

It I do think though, that like, five is where you can begin to kind of like, begin to develop some of those like healthier coping skills and like Teach healthier coping skills and and even if that means like, you know,

 

45:00

We take a timeout, or, you know, maybe we, you know, take deep yoga breath, or we,

 

45:10

you know, we do we color or we do, you do something to kind of help the emotions be processed in, in a safe, comforting, like environment and way. Um

 

45:27

I don't know, like

 

45:32

it's just really hard with a five year old is what I'm trying to say like, it's really delicate and really difficult, especially with a five year old that's been, like traumatized. Like, that's, you know, that's, you almost have to be like, more

 

45:50

like, empathetic and understanding and like patient, there it is, again, patience.

 

45:58

You know, and you have to really, like,

 

46:02

be able to absorb, and

 

46:05

sometimes five year olds are kind of mean. And so sometimes you kind of gotta be able, you kind of, you know,

 

46:12

you've got to be like I am rubber and you are glue what bounces off of me sticks to you or whatever. Like, you don't have that, like the vibe of that, you know, like, you've got to like sort of embody.

 

46:26

Oh, God, our teenagers are going to be brutal. I think I think humanity's teenagers are going to be brutal, but we're not there yet. We're we're definitely not there yet. We're for sure. Still only like five. So I

 

46:44

don't have to really worry about that.

 

46:49

For a while anyway, oh, boy.

 

46:55

College years are probably going to be pretty wild to

 

47:00

those early 20s for humanity. Oh, boy.

 

47:08

It'll be interesting. It all say that it'll be very interesting.

 

47:12

Again, not in my lifetime. Not in my lifetime.

 

47:18

I guess if I like have to come back.

 

47:22

Like, I'd want to, I guess I'd want to come back like, like, during that period of humanity, or whatever, just to be like a fly on the wall. Like, I don't want to be involved. I just want to be like a fly on the wall. And just like not, you know,

 

47:36

unless you know what I'm saying. Like, I don't necessarily want to be human during that time. I just kind of want to be like, a casual observer.

 

47:45

Maybe by that time, like, I'll be able to come back as like a robot or something in my true form, you know, or whatever.

 

47:55

But

 

47:57

I don't know. I mean,

 

48:00

like I said, the younger generations give me a lot of hope.

 

48:07

I felt like it's so millennial of me to like compare.

 

48:13

I don't know, I just feel like that's a very millennial thing to do. Because like millennials, as far as I am aware, like my generation of humans

 

48:25

is very much

 

48:30

like, you know, kind of like about, you know, healing and trying to, like, do things better, and be more attentive, and

 

48:47

like, all the things, I guess.

 

48:51

And so you know, it

 

48:58

I don't know.

 

49:02

I think we need to act as like a shield. Like it's our, it's like, we need to be that shield. For the younger generations, we need to be the ones on the frontlines, like it's our turn to kind of be on the frontlines.

 

49:18

And, you know,

 

49:20

help. To a certain extent, I feel like, we should kind of sit down and shut up.

 

49:30

And we need to let like the younger generations, sort of like, we need to really listen. We really need to listen to the younger generations.

 

49:40

Because they're first somehow they're all figuring out how to get like mass groups of people like on the same page. Good for them. First of all, great for them. Love that.

 

49:54

Keep doing it. But they're also very much like their unit.

 

50:00

They're very, like, you know, they're they are, they're very much like a cohesive unit.

 

50:08

And they all have, like this sense of camaraderie with each other that

 

50:14

I think we could learn from, I definitely think we can draw from that.

 

50:21

I also think that they are,

 

50:26

you know, they're, they're, like I said that

 

50:31

to a certain extent, I feel like they're almost like being forced into learning this stuff. Like, just like about life.

 

50:40

Like younger, which makes me sad. Again, for them, but it it also gives me like, it's also like, a double, it's like a double edged sword because I get like, the hope too, because it's like, they're because they're realizing at such a young age, you know, all of the things like, you know, that it's, it's all bullshit.

 

51:06

That it's just like,

 

51:10

they're figuring out like, They're big. They're becoming more like

 

51:16

not intuitive, but like, more, I guess, like intuitive to a certain extent, but they're also becoming more like

 

51:26

ingenuitive I guess, is that a word? Did I make that up? I feel like that's a word though.

 

51:32

And so like that, that really, like, gives me hope for them. And I have like, God kids and stuff. And so like, I think they're technically part of like generation alpha, which I think is the if I'm correct. That is the generation after Gen Z.

 

51:51

So

 

51:54

yeah, I mean,

 

51:58

I feel like so that gives me help. That's something that gives me like a lot of hope for the future.

 

52:05

I just think we need to like as millennials like we need to make sure that we're doing our part and like

 

52:11

being that that frontline shield for them to explore and figure this out and like come up with ideas and

 

52:22

you know, we need to create that safe space while also like figuring out how we can like take the heat

 

52:28

because they're gonna get a lot of flack they're gonna get a lot of what they're gonna there's going to be a lot of heat and you know, they can't they can't fight that heat. And you know, try to deal with that and be able to do what they need to do so like I think millennials like we need to step up

 

52:47

and kind of like I said, be that like shield for them

 

52:55

or at least sort of like

 

52:59

I don't know be like a wall or something just be that that like help them build that be that outer fortress of that to like help protect them

 

53:12

and obviously the generations that come after a generation alpha or whatever and everything to

 

53:19

I saw that like I said that gives me hope for the future

 

53:29

I

 

53:33

don't know I just don't

 

53:37

The problem is that like it's like it kind of lights a fire under my ass like to sort of get in gear and like figure this shit out, you know? And like help them like with them

 

53:50

the other part of it too, though is that like there is this like realistic part of my brain that's just kind of like

 

53:57

Do you have any idea how difficult this is going to be? Like we need we also need to be like as incredibly realistic as like we possibly can about like, how difficult

 

54:13

this fight is going to be because this is an up this is this is an uphill battle both ways in the snow, kind of a situation like this is what that like, this is what that metaphor is and

 

54:28

and so

 

54:34

I don't know.

 

54:36

I think that's sort of maybe I should have just like change the podcast name to I don't know, because I feel like I say that a lot.

 

54:43

But I don't I don't I mean, I don't have all the answers. I definitely don't have all the answers. I wouldn't want to have all the answers either. I would be no fun. That would be like super no fun.

 

54:56

So like it's not like I'm like totally not excited for the future like a firm

 

55:00

My Own Future like I'm,

 

55:02

like, my own personal like, in my own little bubble in my own little world, I'm kind of I'm like excited for my future and stuff.

 

55:10

To see where it takes me because it's an adventure, I have to look at life as an adventure.

 

55:17

I prefer, you know,

 

55:20

to live in that fantasy world of adventure,

 

55:24

if I'm being honest though.

 

55:30

But just because it's like,

 

55:33

it's, it's like my own form of escapism, kind of a thing.

 

55:41

Which I think, you know, like, everybody, everybody has escapism, which, again, that also makes me very sad, because it's like, if everybody

 

55:52

like,

 

55:54

I don't know, it's one of those things where it's like, what is everybody trying to escape from, like, is shit so bad? Like a shit really all like that bad that like,

 

56:03

literally everybody has to have some form of escapism in order to like, cope with life? And the answer to that question is yes.

 

56:15

Yes, it is that bad. And it gets worse every day.

 

56:21

You know, I see.

 

56:23

And, I mean, all you have to do is just scroll through your newsfeed or turn on the fucking news or whatever, and

 

56:29

you'll see it.

 

56:32

I mean, it's coming at you from all angles, which is why you need a form of escapism, because in order to like, cope with the world around you, because yeah, it makes no fucking sense. It makes no fucking sense.

 

56:49

Now, the challenge for me, though, is taking that fantasy

 

56:55

taking on the fantasies that I have in my head, and making them into realities.

 

57:01

Because everything I mean, and you can tell me whatever about like, that's fantastical thinking, or that's magical thinking, or, I've heard it all. It's fine. Call me whatever you want.

 

57:18

That's fine. doesn't really bother me.

 

57:23

But I kind of looked at it, like,

 

57:27

you know, everything was a fantasy before it was reality.

 

57:33

So

 

57:35

Ha, take that. That's, that's my comeback.

 

57:42

To you.

 

57:45

Yeah, is that everything was a fantasy before it became a reality?

 

57:51

Even the word impossible says I'm possible.

 

57:55

So

 

57:58

you know, take that with what you will.

 

58:01

Huh? That's, that's my retort.

 

58:06

But, you know,

 

58:09

I mean,

 

58:12

I don't mind that. It's just a struggle. You know, it's just a real struggle.

 

58:19

Trying to make all that stuff happen.

 

58:23

It can be done. I just, you know, I do everything really slowly.

 

58:29

It takes me a while to, like, get everything done. So,

 

58:34

I

 

58:37

don't know, I have to be patient with myself because I

 

58:44

and sort of, like, have that acceptance about myself that like, I do kind of take longer, in order to like, get things done. Like it does take me longer.

 

58:55

To sort of really, like,

 

58:58

come up with things and like, come up with,

 

59:01

like ideas because I like to gather sort of, I don't know, like as much information as I possibly can about a subject before I like, make a decision, I guess if that if that makes sense.

 

59:18

And so it takes me longer. It just takes me longer because there's so much information out there. You remember when not enough information was the problem.

 

59:28

I remember that time. I remember that time that that happened. Yeah. And now I have the opposite problem we have

 

59:40

I wouldn't say too much information. I would say more that we have

 

59:47

like segmented information. And it's really difficult to like filter through like what is what is

 

59:57

like, true. Like me

 

1:00:00

donation versus what is, like false.

 

1:00:05

And that's really difficult to do like you really have to, you really have to put in like a lot of time and energy and effort, which, you know, it's I don't know, another thing, it shouldn't be like that like it, shouldn't there

 

1:00:19

some so many issues, I have so many issues with the way that we do things with the way humans do things. It's just like, it's, it's very inefficient to, like,

 

1:00:30

I don't know, it's just

 

1:00:33

were highly frustrating. Very interesting. Very, very interesting. Complex, I would say.

 

1:00:41

In, in, in that we like complexity, we're not necessarily like,

 

1:00:48

I mean, I guess we are like, highly complex. I'm

 

1:00:55

sorry, there was a dog groaning

 

1:00:59

everything's fine. He's okay. He's just pitching a fit, because he wants attention. Sorry, excited quest.

 

1:01:07

I wasn't saying Oh, yes.

 

1:01:09

So I just don't

 

1:01:12

like Yeah, so we're, like, complex in the sense that like, we like complexity. And yes, to a certain extent, we are very incredibly complex, like creatures, like we've barely, like, we've just sort of Amande I'm sure you've seen the stuff, we like, just finished mapping the human genome and stuff like that. So

 

1:01:34

which, you know, makes me feel a little bit better.

 

1:01:38

About how long it takes me to, like, get stuff done, and to, like, accept ideas and, like, understand things and like, you know, whatever, because it's like, well, I'm not super far behind because, like human beings as a species, like,

 

1:01:53

we take forever, we really take forever.

 

1:01:59

Which is fine. That's fine. It's just that it takes forever, you know, so

 

1:02:06

I don't know.

 

1:02:12

I hate his I don't want to say that, like, the future is kind of what you make it.

 

1:02:19

As far as like, which viewpoint you want to look at it, like the future is going to be positive, if you think positively, or the future will be negative, if you think negatively, like, I don't.

 

1:02:34

That's not

 

1:02:39

like, yes, but no. Does that make sense? Like, yes, you are correct, in the sense that, like,

 

1:02:48

to a certain extent, yes. If you look at things in a certain way, then, you know,

 

1:02:59

it will your outcome and your perception and like whether or not you're optimistic or pessimistic will, like, inevitably be due to that perception.

 

1:03:14

But

 

1:03:16

there is a no in that. And the know is that, like,

 

1:03:23

there is a third category. And the third category is reality. And, I mean,

 

1:03:34

if you look,

 

1:03:36

if you if you remove the feeling from it, and you just look at the reality of it, it's like

 

1:03:48

it's, it's nothing, it's like it's kind of

 

1:03:54

it just is, if that makes sense. Like it just it is and it will be

 

1:04:01

and

 

1:04:04

but that's where,

 

1:04:07

you know, that's where you can begin to if if you have the mind to do it, that's where you can begin to kind of like play with it and more fit and meld it and figure out like, what

 

1:04:21

what you want where where everything like where, you know, you get to play with it, you get to like manipulate it and play with it.

 

1:04:33

Which I guess you know,

 

1:04:36

goes back to

 

1:04:41

like my own perception of things, I suppose.

 

1:04:45

But

 

1:04:47

yeah,

 

1:04:49

thank you guys so much for listening. I hope you enjoyed it. It was just it was really just me like rambling and sort of going stream of consciousness and thought.

 

1:04:58

I apologize. I didn't I

 

1:05:00

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1:05:08

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